the memories of my Pre-University Life

15 December 2011, my last paper for my STPM....
after the paper,
some of the boys from my class co-operate with each others arrange the tables and chairs that we used for our examination....
after worked, Mdm Azyan treat us the pizza at pizzahut....
I don't really know how much we ate but we are happy and enjoyed with it....

in one and the halve years....
i do really gain a lot of experiences.....
I have learn a lot....
I have getting mature....
seriously....

I had did a lot of things....
some brings joys and funs to people....
some bring sorrows and hurt the people around....
but one things that I know....
I get know who are my truth friends....

there are somethings that i would like to share....
about my classmates, my teachers and my prefectorial board juniors.....
i hope when you guys read this u won't angry with me....
that is just my personal opinions.....

from the 1st row....
Yap Pui Kwan -
I do remember when you 1st come to our school...
you did surprise us....
OMG...your math is crazy like held....
the questions that we cant do but you did it....
but i would like to say the people around the world are not deserve to serve you....
not everybody also kind....not everybody also willing to help u....
you should learn to be responsible....

Lock Li Li -
for me you are the people who has a great potential to study very excellent....
because u do have the strong foundation.....
anywhere....i hope next time anythings you should learn to protect yourselves and talk to your parent.....

Lee Connie -
seriously....we dont like the way u do works....
honestly i dont think you are deserve to be the TKP....
I dislike the ways you duty....
pls be responsible....
but i can c when u meet ur true friends u will b nice to them....

Chang Yee Ying -
i think you should learn to differentiate what is more important....
+ u la....yamdamiki.....run toward Japan....

chua chi wing -
i still remember how we know each others....
how we interact....
how we fight
how we union...Xp
but seriously....wing, as a friend i would like to advise you to control you emotion....
this not only my opinion....
but i think many people think the same way....
just no one are brave enough to tell you....
I hope you wont angry with me when u read this....^_^|/

Tan Hwee Teong -
honestly....
you are the most selfish people among who I had ever meet.....
sometime helping people also can gain something.....
pls change the ways u interact with others....

Lim Jine Keong -
I know you do care about every single one of us....
at 1st, many of us cannot get used to the ways you did.....
but now, i think we can accept....hahahaha
anyway thank for caring me...

Yap Shuang Yi -
you are the crazy people....
you are the same as me....
we willing to fight for the right....
fight for the true....
+ U ba.....

Soh Khar Mun -
you have giving me a lot of experience.....
thank you....
because at the important moment you still support me....
help me out....
hahahaha

Ong Li Yong -
seriously....
you have change a lot....but pls behave like a girl(joking)
a hard working gal...
gossip gal....
hahahaha

Ho Kah Wai-
a smart, but lazy people...
sometime I do really thinking of how come you can be so SMART!!!!
but dont continue lazy oh....
+U....

Yong Wai Yan-
you know la....hahahahaha....

Gan Shi Ling-
thank for sharing some staff with me....
even most of the time you din share it....
n i hope u can know ur direction....
and seriously....
i very hate and angry to hear
" see first " , " I not sure", "you dont cal me in 1st"
all this words....
for me....
most of the time when u making decision you have to be smart and fast...
if you want then said want...
if you dont want then said dont want....
that simple....
and pls try to think if u were I,
u receive such an answer wat do u think as an organiser....

Jia Ying-
a person cant "de zhui"
u r those people whou treat ppl with the way they treat u....
but for u...
sometime dont too stubborn on certain things...
especially when you had knew you going to lose....
learn to let go....
so that u wont get that hurt....

Jega-
the only indian friend in our class....
a nice...
responsible people....

Wai Hong-
you are a nice ppl....
who suport me all the time...
but i wont like to say....
u should learn to say know....
and tell sth directly without turning a big round....
not everybody can understand that.....

Kok Kiat-
a hardworking man....
can think sth that we never think...
hahahaha

Thin Sung-
speechless....

Jien Cheng....
bombaman....
when quiet very quiet....
when boom people the people sure die 99....
a peaceful guy....
hahahaha

Wen Quan-
1st i have to say sorry with what i had did b4....
then i want to tell u...
there r sth that you want to tell....
you should choose the correct people....
not everybody are suitable for every discussion....

Teng Jin Wen-
a crazy man....
alway 3 8 with me....
help the people around the class....
a smart people....
the one who love by most of the teachers....
like to emo when not happy...

Mdm Azlin
the teacher who had fight with us....
who dont like to obey the rule...
who caring students with a different way(scolding)....
who is brave....
hahahahaha

Mdm Azyan
a nice teacher....
who tough me since form 4....
always treat me a lot of food....
a biology story teller....

Mdm Tian
who always put us in the 1st place....
who care us the most....
everything thinking of us....
give us the best of everything....
who like to give extra class......

Mdm Banusha....
who always crazy with us....
band 4 be the 1st reason for her teaching....
like to train us for speaking....

Miss Catherine...
who have a Master degree....
high standard of math knowledge....
seriously...
we cant follow ur lessons....
so sorry....

Mr. Moay
who have motivate me the most....
always asking me dont give up....
fight for the future....
care about our study....
study be the 1st priority.......

that all....
my pre-university life had end....
but my memories with you guys never come to a fullstop....
you guys will always be in my heart.....
I love you all...
6SA/2011

sorry....

sorry..

I misunderstand you.......

sorry.

i make you cry...

sorry..

i make you sad........

sorry....

i disappointed you....

I am so sorry...

but honestly...

I do really take you as my best friend........

I want to share all my joys and sorrow with you.......

can I???

can we???

like before???

but in fact I do really sad.

because previously....

I will share my things with you...

and you will share you things with me....

after you change your sit.....

we seldom talk already....

you have no more share your things with me...

and I am the same too.......

so sorry.......

i do really care about your opinion bout me.....

^_^|/

an unmotivated day.....

today, someone had quarrel with someone....

in fact nothing is related to me....

when we go for lunch together....

when u said "your friend" and "my friend" ....

actually quick sad for me to heard this lo....

oh...

in your opinion, i m just his friend...

but not your....

being hurt....

......

when i realize many people also notice your blog..

n i m the one who still dont know....

that kind of feeling....

but I am who I am???

I am just nothing for u....

and yet I respect you......

but really quick sad la........

TT

after taking a nap....

i try my best to do homework....

when i did the math.....

i realy feel like want to cry....

i cant even do..

every question know how to start but dont know how to continue......

sad lo....

haiz..........

hope tomorrow will b a good day....

忆

2010／9／29，11.30am....
婆婆在这世上
吸下了她的最后一口气，
也呼出了最后一口气。
连续几晚的惊醒，
总意味着有时发生，
但却万万没想到是如此的厄息....
婆婆安祥的离开这人世....
也许这对她来说是一种解脱....
回想上星期六回来探望她时....
她辛苦的呼吸....
其实她的离开会是上天对她的决定.....
因为她老人家真的累了...
当棺木抵达家时，
每个人都流下眼泪....
只有我强忍了下来，
因为我知道婆婆不想我们伤心
这也是为什么婆婆不等我们到达才离去的原因...
在说，
哭只会给婆婆带来不舍....
那不是更辛苦吗？
在来，
我们还有许许多多的事情给处理....
理智告诉了我要坚强....

还有关心我的朋友们，有心了...
我挨的过去，
以我开朗的心情，
必定很快回归那开朗的我....

^_^|/

aFter tHe TriaL exAm......

at the end.

finish the STPM trial exam.....

I am very sure...

my result will not excellent....

if you ask me....

is the questions really difficult???

I dont think so....

especially physics......

if compared to diagnostik......

the standard is offcoz higher (except for physics)

but if we practise enough....

i think that shouldnt be any problem for us......

STPM just 2 month from now.......

I only leaf 2 month....

in this 2 month......I am the only one who can help myself.......

succeed or not succeed.....

is totally depend on how much afford i putting in......

MY STPM TIME TABLE

21 NOVEMBER PENGAJIAN AM KERTAS 2

25 NOVEMBER PHYSICS PAPER 2

30 NOVEMBER CHEMISTRY PAPER 1

1 DECEMBER CHEMISTRY PAPER 2

6 DECEMBER MATHEMATICS T 1

8 DECEMBER MATHEMATICS T 2

13 DECEMBER PENGAJIAN AM KERTAS 1

15 DECEMBER PHYSICS PAPER 1

TRY YOUR BEST, DO YOUR BEST, LEAVE THE REST TO THE GOD, AND ASK FOR THE BLESS.............

tired day.......

this holiday.

everybody work very hard...

because after the holiday...

exam start directly....

trial exam

but i just relax myself....

but start from tomorrow....

i have to work xtremly hard....

nothing....

just my target......

my hope........XP

I hOpe i wiLL continue until the end.......

surprisingly....

I able to finish my physics questions in 1 day time...

the whole chapter.....

i finish it..

this is what I never did before......

last time i am not that efficient........

but this time.......

I do it.......

I really hope i can continue my spirit until the end of STPM.........

I really have a big dream..........

which is score A for physics..........

Warren, U can do it......+ U

you are super annoying....

you giving me an extremely bad impression since I am form4.....

the 1st year you come to our school....

honestly, I don't even feel you behave like a teacher....

everyday shouting here and there....

making noise here and there......

annoying......

if you really have the quality.....

you don't need to show off........

you want to show off........

but you don't have that kind of ability.........

don't you think we students don't know what is in your mind.......

last time when Mr. Peter was here....

you did something the same.......

do remember........

you are a teacher.....

no a performer........

your job here is to teach........

but not to show off........

and I don't think your sound is really nice lo...........

many others teacher they can even sing much much better than you.....

you......eat shit la.......

annoying.........

I think only that group of students like you.....

we form 6.......

totally against you.......

annoying........

and remind you one thing......

here is school........

not the place for you to open your concert........

and please respect students and our belover teachers........

those teachers who really have the intension to teach.............

to lesson their students.............

MUET sEminar at JPWPKL autitorium

went for the MUET seminar today.......

I had been selected by Mdm Banusha.......

I really have the intention to score Band 4.............

that is the reason why I am working so hard.......

I try all the reading questions....

I dont know wheater is because Madam Banusha have practise a lot with us or

they students who attend the seminar are too weak.....

because when the speaker asking the questions...

I might be able to give all the funny funny answer.....

i not sure they really dont know or they pretend they dont know....

even some mistakes had been made by Mdm Banusha....

but overall, i think she really guild us well.....

especially our speaking and reading....

she always practise with us.......

we had did variety of questions.......

that really help us.......

i really hope i can get band 4 this time.....

even exactly band 4 i oso dun mind..........

bcoz that is the minimum requirement for my university application.......

and tis few day....

my emotion is in excited state...

whereby it is not stable......

suddenly emo.......

suddenly happy.......

n you....

dun noe what happen la......

haiz........

when u got problem come and find me......

when i want to ask you something.....

i not sure you are really busy or what...

whatever la......

i appreciate you then that is all rite.......

haiz.......

what happen to me???

我在白白的浪费这两天....

明明有很多东西还没做完....

不懂镇么就是起不仅来做功课....

一直看戏，facebook，找人谈天.....

我竟然和一个素未见面的人，

在facebook谈心事谈到4am...

我真的有这个必要吗？？？

我中三那时的精神全取了哪里？？？？

这样下去，我的成绩一定一落千丈....

到时，又后什么悔呢？？？

我到底要什么？？？

快醒醒啦.....

真的很讨厌自己....

很想去打自己一巴掌....

trOublEsoMe.....

something happen this few day........

I really dont know what I did are something correct or wrong......

but I had did....I shouldn't regret........

before I go start tHis war.......

I am get ready myself to lose........

because I know....

all the reasons I going to give.......

will be fight back by the teacher........

one thing I want to say about Madam Chen....

I never not happy with her........

but I feel proud of her......

do you guys know why???

because she is an excellent leader......

a leader who will protect her follower.........

no matter what her follower do.......

this not everybody can do.......

even I know she might not do everything that I asked for.......

but I know she will try her best.....

it take time.....

all my unhappiness.......

i had said it out......

hope she will solve it.......

pity, my counsin.........

pity, my cousin

marry a lazy guy,

I dont mind you are poor....

but I do mind you are lazy and never go to works.....

never talking bull shit to me...

.what the happy go lucky.....

all this is just the nonsense......

guys......

we as a Man,

we must make sure we have the ability to taking care of our life partner

especially those who are in love or going to marry......

never bull-shiting......

i hate to listen those stupid reasons.......

you want to get marry with her....

now she is belong to you....

and yet, she has born you a baby....

she has marry you for about 2 years+....

but until today....

you havent get a job....

fuck....

you tell people you graduate with engineering degree???

or what degree....

just a simple jobs....

you also cant get...

i cant understand why is she so stupid........

if i m her....

so sorry....

i will slap you then kick your bird n

say bye bye to you......

dont keep saying people looking down on you....

you are the one who make everybody looking down on you......

bull shirt...........

still brave to tell my sis....

u love my counsin in deep....

you two r happy....

nah.........

if you really love her.....

do you need her to works???

fuck u......

i am so angry...........

for me....

i will never admit you as my relative..........

you are not deserve for it.....

so sorry................

rubbish............

really have to work hard.....

2 days.....

examination finish....

I really learn a lot from all the mistakes i did in this examination.....

STPM leave 3 month....

really have to work very hard....

i realize....STPM not really that tough....

just the matter how deep we understand....

and how hard working we are........

physcis.....

last time i really feel tough....

but now....i know....

how much afford i put in....

how much i gain back....

tis time....i very disappointed with myself....

for physics....

please do somethings....

dont allow this happen again in trial....

my target for trial....

Math - A

Physics - A-

Chemistry - A -

Pengajian Am - A-....

please make sure I myself work harder to achieve it...

结识与朋友....

结识满天下，

真心没几个....

回想，

有问题时，

到底又有谁可以让我哭诉呢？？？

我尽最大的能力去了解身边的人.....

但有几个又能了解我呢？？？

________________________________________

朋友，

是你,

让我的生活

添加多几分色彩....

是你,

让我了解人生

的苦与乐....

是你，

早期我最需要慰问的时候，

送了一句最温馨的安慰语.....

是你，

在我觉得孤单的时候，

陪伴着我吐过那宁静又漫长的夜晚....

是你，

愿意在我需要对象哭诉的时候，

听取我那无理的哭诉.....

是你，就是你，你就是我的好朋友.....

我爱你。。。。

bUsy WeEk.........

last week was an activities week....

what a busy week....

start frOm MondAy busy until SatuRday............

n is a birthday week.....

LoLz.....

sO many people birthday............

@@.....

but so hOw something make me feEL noT HapPy.....

especially dUring the photo taKing sectiOn foR rEd HoUse..........

damN aNnOyiNg.............

what a stUpid teAcher I had evEr meeT.....

bUlL sHit......

iF yOu dOnt wAn tO tAke thE phOto yoU caN juSt tElL uS.....

No Nid Us rAn heRe n tHere loOking fOr you....

afTer tHat waIting fOr you for aboUt haLve an HoUr.....

yOu thInk wE gOt nothing tO dO ah????

NoNseNse..............I HatE it........

yOu are Not YdPa ok????

_____________________________________________________

lAst SatUrday......

We gUys ceLebrate SerEne n Kam LiNg biRthday

at Yen Shabu-shabu............

I LoVe tHat PlaCe....evEn a bIt exPensIve but Is ReasOnabLe.....

I LovE the Japanese dIsh theRe....

fEeL lIke waNna tO gO agaIn.....@@

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n yoU....stUpid Lee CoNnIe.....

caN you dont do soMethIng annOiying????

yoU are sO stupiD.....

I teLl yoU

you as the senior for them....

you yourselves cant do your duty well.....

but can you please dont bring along your junior

go to snake together with you....I

f you want to snake to snake in front of us.....

n never bring along him....

you are freaking annoying you know.....

if you challenge me again....

dOn't fault me if I taking discipline action to you....

NonSense snake qUeen.....

fUcK!!!!!

一个原本就有的误会，终于爆发....

原本我们俩早已拥有许许多多的误会.....

只是看岁的能耐力在那.....

今天是你让它爆发.....

你的理智在那？？？

简单的一封合约.....

仅能让你脑羞成怒.....

我绝对不会为此而计较......

你要用你的理解去明白那合约内容，

是你的选择.....

我阻止不到.....

你的那句从今以后不再是朋友........

好，我受.....

但用你那所谓的聪明头脑去想想......

你所谓的我对你的陷害.....

是否逻辑有在???

感到无言......

还是回到我那原本拥有的朋友那里去.....

When you asked me,,,,,

when you asked me....

had you ever fall in love with her??

I had stop for a period of time....

i dun noe what to answer....

but cum to the end....

I said yes....

when you asked me.....

hv she fall in love with you???

I stop for a moment....

I din answer anythings....

you asked again....

I said I dun noe.....

last time i might answer you yes....

but now....

i really dun noe how to answer.....

you asked me....

what I love about her????

I think n think n think.....

actually i really dun noe what I love about her.....

but I am sure I love her b4.....

may b I love her smile....I love the way she treat me....

but for sure.....

i not love her look......

when you asked me.....

why you will love her????

I think for a long time....

i cant answer you....

but I realize.....

I start got feeling when we r in the penang trip....

......

....

毕业前的感触....

光阴似箭....

不，犹如子弹....

眼看着，

这七年的中学生涯接近尾声.....

开始回想这一路走来

的点点滴滴.....

这些年来，

回忆无穷....

今年最为特出.....

无限回忆....

担忧毕业典礼当天，

留下我那男儿泪.....

那对你们依依不舍的泪....

如果你看到，请赐我面巾一条.....

XP

I am lost.......

3 more month to go....

STPM is around the corner.....

I know, i should work very very hard from now on....

but....

I dont know why I can gain back my study mood....

i feel very badly....

everytime, i tell myself....

i must study this,

i must study that....

but come to the end....

i study nothing....

i feel bad....i disappointed with myself....

can someone help me please....

_______________________________________________________

I like to be the counselor of others....

but i think no one willing to get the consultation from me....

i feel bad....XP

some time, i need some one to talk with me too....

to express my feeling....

to be my listener....

i have ever ask myself....

do I have a friend,

who can I share all my feeling to????

yes, may be i willing to share with he/she....

but do he/she willing to listen it???

I feel very bad on it....

can you please Raise me Up.....

突袭来潮的感觉.....

just now when I went out for dinner with my parent....

don't know why, so sudden....

I have that kind of feeling.....

I start feel that pressure....

I had been rest for about 1 month time....

is the time to restart my engine.....

I know i dont leave much time but dont why i cant get the study mood....

n i start realize, form 6 is reli not an easy works

I am thinking, why my friends who study in colleges....

they like very free.....

they can just say outing then outing....

even a very sudden decision....

they can just go like that....

and I can see they dont have much pressure....

I am thinking back....

what I want actually???

do I really like engineering???

or I just study bcoz I know that i will have a great future if i study that????

start confusing......

I realize since early....

actually my stronger parts are at analysis data n history, politic.....

but i dont know why can i get if i study that.....

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today, when i talk to my juniors,

i realize somethings from him.....

what a terrible teacher is....

I am totally upset and disappointed with you.........

If you think he dont have the abilities to do works....

then i think you shouldnt ask him to do this and do that.....

he had sacrified a lot for this society.....

what do he get from here is just a sentence....

“我觉得你应该把你那工委的机会让给高班的学生...."

excuse me....Is academic decide everything????

bull shit....if you say so....

y there are so many graduates cant even find a jobs.....

but those who with low academic,

becoz they dun mind to work for this and that....

one day later become so successful...

for me, you as a teacher.....

you shouldnt said that....

but now u had say it out....

therefore I think you should asking for apologize from him.....

this is what you should do.....

you still teaching this and teaching that....

how great the Chinese Languages is....

continue our tradisional.....

but....

wat u did....

just against with wat u teach in the class.....

一封给我四个小瓜的信....

To: Chao Dong....

In fact you are quick good, for me, you have do your parts....

but that is not enuf....to be a leader, there are a lot of things for you to learn....I hope u can really be a good leader in the future....The mistake that u have now, is u r lazy some time....and u r not discipline enuf....even u noe the rule, but u still wan to break it....but i like one thing about u....everytime when i tell u sth ask u not to repeat...at least u will listen to me.....but please be serious.....sometime i really get angry wif u guys....i noe u guys dun like to be too serious....but u should know....to be a leader....at a certain time, u have no choices but have to be serious with every single little small cases....I hope u really can understand..... I hope i can see ur changes at least in this two week...n i dun hope after the AGM, u get ur post but u never do ur duty.....If that time i noe u do so, then i will really disappointed with u.....

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To: Hoong Liang:

for me, u r the best among the four, at least u willing to go for ur duty....whatever i ask u to do, u do it for me nicely.....n u wont like they 3, purposely make me angry.....but, u like to late.....late for duty in the morning, u like to ponteng meeting.....that is sth that I cant accept....n one more thing, u cant be serious....some time u let me to feel like u r too childish.....n dont alway tell me, u not serious is bcoz of others......others come n disturb u n therefore u bcum not serious....tis is totally nonsense for me......n dun keep laughing here n there.......as a leader for any troop or biro, u should be show them ur serious face but not a kid face...if not, no one will listen to u.......i really hope u will change....if not u will facing a lot of trouble in the future......n dun oway bully by them.......

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To Wei Fung:

u r the one that make me disappointed the most....I have very high expectation on u....but u disappointed me from time to time.....i really dont noe wat to do so that i can help u....at 1st, u r the calon for PKP but bco of ur attitude, ur name had been cancelled from the list....rite now, u dun even get any post....if u hope to get a good post from my hand....please la....change ur attitude.....n i m worry....in case i gv u a post next year, will u do ur works??? tat is the problems...I affair u will like when u r in the form 2.....that time u will make everybody in trouble.........that is wat i dun wan to c........

n u as the leader, u shouldnt complaint all the time......everytime u complaint tis n tat to me....yes i listen...but have u ever listen to me??? why cant u show me sth????

i reli dun noe wat to say, but i hope u can show me ur changes.....if not, u dun false me if u cant get anythings come to the end....as u noe....i will realise wat i said....

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To Hung Eun:

I dun have much to saay to u...bcoz watever i wanna to say....i had said to u....is depend on u wan to listen or not....u keep complaining prefect tis not gud, tat not gud....but have think of....why is this happen??? bcoz the person like u, selfish have a lot in the prefect....i tell u honestly, i oso dun like to be prefect...when i 1st come back for form 6....i quarrel wif teachers, i fight wif them, just oli one things, i dun wan to b prefect, i just wan to concentrated on my study....bcoz tat time for me, ntg for me to hv the reason stay in tis board.....until today, i willing duty together wif u guys, is just bcoz of u guys....but y cant u guys appreciate it???? I can tell u....u guys r the oli juniors tat i treat that nice....compare to last time.....everybody oso scared n hate me.....just bcoz i never talk dun even smile to them....i treat u guys tat nice....but u guys never appreciate wif it....i reli disappointed wif u lo.....haiz....i got ntg to say oledi....wat u wan to be...just go ahead la....i have ntg to say oledi....tat ur own choice...not mine....

mixed feeling....

recall back that day....

When I go to nite market with my friends....

someone asked me...

" Warren, If one day later, he n she together...what will you feel???"

I din answer that person directly....

after a while... i asked her back....

" Mr, If ur Miss Rite together wif ur Mr. Hate....what will you feel???"

He/ She told me....

I will very very angry with tat person....

at that time....

I give that person my answer....

" I wont hate him nor her....but if they really together....i will just pretent like i never know them before....n i think our friendship is the time to say bye bye...."

this is really what am I thinking that time....

n to u....

I have to say sorry to u....

i had been hurt in deep for the last story....

i m totally not ready to restart another story....

i m sorry....

please dont waiting for me....

just go ahead with that boy....

he will much much better than me....for sure....

n i m sure i not caring as him....n i wont obey u like him....

so please dont wait for me....

sorry about this....

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yesterday... i chat with him for quick a long time.....

at 1st.... i m thinking....

should I ask???

becoz i scared if i ask,

if he get well the no problem....

but he havent recover,

i might recall his sadness....

at the end i choose to ask him....

the reason is because....

i think i have the responsible to give him counselling

in case he really not recover yet.....

because when he feel down....

everybody just thinking of....

not to mention again about the issue....

so that he wont feel sad....

but my opinion is....

i must help him out to overcome the problems......

I dont know whatever I did help him out or not....

hopefully it helps....

come to the end....i just wish him

recover soon.....all the best to you.............

[ in my heart, u r the best runner that i had ever see....i think u are the oli people who willing to work that hard, scarify that most....so i really hope u hv the bright future....i promise u....if u come n looking helps from me....if it is in my ability....for sure i will help....especially helping u in gaining ur confidence....]

ParTs of my Secondary + Pre-U memories.....

May be tis is my very last year in SMK Jinjang.....

recall 7 years ago....

I still remember when my mum asked me transfer to this school....

I keep said i dun wan.....

just because I am graduate from a famous Primary school....

In addition I saw all my terrible cousin....

then I feel like....

WTH....SMK Jinjang....

a school full of social worm....

In fact I really experience it....

when I am in form 1.....

WTH....what a rubbish class I got....

at that time....

nobody in the class are study seriously....

we fight here and there.....

our higher achievement in the class.....

is just ngam ngam past....==

and because of that....

I had from 1A10 drop to 2A3.....

what a shock experience that I have....

come to this class....

i get knew about a lot of gengster....

a lot of people who oli know how to sleep in the class...

everything just settle with fight.....

but I get know about one things from them....

they are united.....this is what I can learn from them....

n their life really simple....

not internal fighting at all....

most if not all the students....

when they are under my situation....

I think most of them are give up....

but I dont know why.....

when i am in that class....

I really study extrem hard....even I know i can get the 1st in the class very easily....

but dun noe when my spirit come from....

tell me....u must be study extremly hard.....

therefore.....

everytime exam....the total marks that I obtained....

normally had a very big gap between them.....

1st n 2nd place the marks different can go up to 250++

offcuz if I compared my marks with the rest....can up to 400 to 500++ la....==

at the end...

i go back to 3A11....

that everybody cant belive I had ever study at 2A3 before....hahahaha.....

such a good experience for me....I love it....muacks.....

may be becoz of that time....until today....i able to study in Pre-U ....

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tis is my very last year in SMK Jinjang....

I have gain a lot of things from there....

especially this year....

may be becoz of my last year....

i feel like i have change a lot compare to previous....

I love my 4 little cute juniors....

I willing to take k about them....

i willing to forgive them with whatever mistakes they did....

I can even treat them as nice as I can....

nothing....

just becoz....i noe them well....

i noe they can do sth better....

they gv me a lot of joys memories....

Red house....

hahahahaha....

thanks to all my members....

I love u all...

a very last year in SMK Jinjang....

participants in this special sport day....

a lot of things happen between us....

even we do not know each others for long time....

but dun noe why i feel like i can close with u all....

hahahahahahaha...............

I am happy bcoz i noe ur dream....

i realize it for u....XD....

hahahaha....bcoz i dun wan u have any regretness in ur life.....

tis is what i can do for u....LOL...

anyway thank guys....

I love u all very much.....

i really have a lot of sweet memories la....

a special holiday

since last Saturday is sport day....

therefore, today is holiday....

early in the morning....

go movie with my little Brandon Chao Dong....

we watch the movie name as Green lantern....

such a nice movie.....not bad.....

after that...i send him back....

then go back to my house and take a rest.....

around 5pm.....

go to station 1 n celebrate Pek's birthday....

hahahaha.....

hope he enjoyed with it la....

then go Jasmine house for swimming.....

OMG....

i got Champion for swimming maraton....XP

unbelieveable....

the participant got Karmun Chong, jasmine Yeo, jordan yeO, JimMy yAp n i.....

hahahaha....

such a funny game....XP

after swimming i reli feel relax....totally relax.....

now is the time to do homework oledi....

~思。念~

在这宁静的深夜，
感到万分的寂寞，
回想我的人生，
到底又有几样是值得光荣的事呢？？
好想你前来慰问我，
朋友，你还好吗？？
简单的一句话，
但却是窝心又温暖的....
即使在大座的冰山，
都能一一地被劈开....
~思。念~

SMK Jinjang Sport Day 2011

18 Jun 2011, Stadium Selayang.....

SMK Jinjang sport day held yesterday,

all the students from the school participated the sport day together....

I, Warren Yong, as the Kapten for Red House participated it actively too....XP

let me start my story....

The nite b4, i oli sleep at 2am, may b because too excited.....

the marks between red house n purple house was near....

I affair we cant get the champion....

because I really hope we get the champion.....XD

Dun ask me y???

tat is my opinion tat time....

early in the morning, accident happen....

i had bang Miss Leaw car....

I dun describe the details.... because tat is not important at all

but when accident happen, I dont noe y,

i had an unpeaceful feeling....

those feeling cant be describe by words.....

the sport day start....

WTH, tat a stupid teacher tahan my runner....==....

so, i hv to gv up for tat section.....

because no participants.....

therefore, at 1st, our marks had lose badly to Purple house.....

Fortunately, after tat, long running,

we had follow back the marks n overtake it....

the time i just relax, OMG....

a bad news had come to me.....

OMG.... my best Runner.... DEE ZONG YANG was accident....

his hand had break....

I start worry....

and i noe we r going to lose for the few section.....

haiz....

but tat time,wat i am worried,

no more about championship,

but is Zong Yang's hand....

i dun hope my members get hurt because of championship....

I really feel sad n sorry to him....

after that, he had send by PBSM to hospital.....

the game continue....

i dun even had any mood....

I just worry about him.....

after an hour....

I saw all my others participants, they run hardly....

I knew, i shouldnt down anymore....

becoz, jack's spirit is alway with us....

he get hurt just because of contribution to red house....

then i start gv support to all others participants.....

RED HOUSE, JOHAN.....ReD HOUSE GAMBATEI.....

at the end.... we reli get the champion....

n my Jack Dee Zong Yang get the olahragawan.....

his spirit always there.....

Jack u r the best in my heart....

offcuz...I had to thank Pui Ling, Jessie Lau they all....

I wanna to say, without u guys (Lai Pui Ling,Jessie Lau,Jack Im,Wei Soon, Gemini Kwan....), i dun think i able to stand at the sport stage and receive the metal....thank guys.....i love u all....thank you contribution to red house.....without all of ur afford, we cant get the champion this year....thank you....

The letter to Jack Dee:

1st n foremost, i would like to say thank you to you....ur contribution to the red house...I will never forget....the afford tat u put in....i reli can c n feel it...
next, congratulation because u get the olahragawan for tis year, i noe u might said u still have regret bcoz u cant break the record for 100m which u hope for so long, but i wanna to said, for me, u did it....u reli did it....the result is not important, the important thing is the afford tat u putting in in order to achieve it....so u had did it....so no nid to feel regret or sorry to urselves....
furthermore, when i get knew abt u bad news, i reli feel sad n hopeless....bcoz i noe without u....4*100 is difficult to win but anywhere, ur spirit ia always with us....now i just hope u can take a rest, take k ur body, get well soon.....once u get well i bring u, Jessie Lau, Lai Pui Ling n Lee Pui Ling for either KFC or Mc Donald...i pay for u....XP....
lastly, i wish u get well soon....
I reli thank you....

说真的，我不想你在认为有遗憾,在你blog里面所认为的遗憾.....我希望，你能够放弃你认为的遗憾，从新出发，过去就让它过去，就让这个最佳男运动员来概括你所谓的遗憾好吗？？我知道你想破100m的记录，那么就去破L1的吧,当让你破纪录的同时，也要顾着自己的安全，别像这次这样在受伤了，懂吗？？？ 加油吧！！！我看到你的那种毅力，我绝对相信你可以做到....让你这股热血继续让烧下去吧....这是我最后一年在SMKJ 了，谢谢你为我带来了这美好的回忆，我会永远记得你们....快点好回，不然Pui Ling n Jing Yee 他们就给慢慢等我请他们吃东西了....因为条件是等你好回一起去庆功...

a temporary Championship....XD

after fighting n worried for about 2 week +....

all my results coming out....

em...can I say I am satisfied with my result???

Not Really....

but at least This time I really pass all the subjects....

surprisingly, my general paper....tat is somethings unbelievable....

I had never did so well for my paper 1....

hahahaha....

48 correct out of 60 questions....

but my paper 2 are so terrible.....

so i have to work harder for it....

MUET result came out already....

I am totally not satisfied with it....

because I only get Band 3....

my essay really kill me badly...

thus have to resit again lo....

i tell myself I must get band 4 this time....

so i will try very very hard.....

god bless me please............

My currect results:
Physics - 50 marks

Mathematics - 51 marks

Chemistry - 51 marks

General Paper - 52 marks.....

i give myself a target....for the coming July test....

all the subject must improve at least 10 marks.....

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next after sukan tara + sukan saringan.....

Rumah Merah now temporally is the champion.....

however we are just win 4 marks more than Ungu....

anyway, I am really happy....

No matter at the end can we get the overall champion or not....

but I am really happy with it....

because I noe i m enjoyed the process....

I get know a lot of people here....

I mean all my runners....

Like Jack Dee, Lai Pui Ling, Lau Jing Yi.......

who really work hard for it....

thank guys.....

without u guys.....

for sure we will not win today....

anyway + U for the sport day....

I really hope we can get the overall champion....

hahahahhaha.....

all the best....

love u all....

muacks.....

无数的感触....

今天不懂为什么....

我拥有无数的感触....

一早，与朋友到 Mdm Tian 的家上化学课....

放学后，朋友问了我....

Warren...will you feel like you dun wan to leave Mdm Tian after the STPM???

My answer is Yes.... I Will....

for me...she is a good teacher.....

even sometime she really Ngam Cham....

but I know it clearly....

she just want me to score my STPM with flying colour....

I can actually really see her hard work in preparing all the things to me....

I really appreciate with it....

Thank you Madam Tian....u just like my Second Mummy.....hahahaha....

Night,

I go for badminton with my friends.....

I had talk a lot with my brother, WJ....

offcuz i wont tell u what we talk la....hahahaha....

but i can said....what we talk bringing me a lot of feeling....

what kind of feeling.....let me tell u one by one.....

during this holiday....

today I m too tired ....

cannot write much....

sorry....

Reborn....

This issue had bring us in trouble....

I know now is the time to end this.....

today when she message me at facebook....

cannot be denied....

I am happy....

because since that day....

she dont even talk to me with any single words....

after that day....

I am the one who looking for her....

message her 1st....

but today is different....

she is the one who message me.....

but I know....I should end this....

after attending the tuition class...

and i come back to home....

start online....

she come and find me again....

she wanna to settle down everything with me....

I noe I should do that....

she had told me a lot of things....

before,

I will asked her is it I have the chance?

but this time, I dun even said all this....

I noe I has the responsible to over this game....

thus I had said something hurt her in deep....

I know she is rite now angry wif me....

but I noe....

I wont regret wif it....

that might not be the best solution....

but it is a solution for me.....

Sorry to said....

after being hurt deeply....

no matter i said I m recover....

but there still will be a bad memory in my mind....

which cannot be deleted.....

but I know....

rite now....

I oli have 1 mission....

which is STPM....

sorry if I hurt u....

in fact u no nid to borther with wat I said....

just ignored me this kind of people....

STPM i m cuming....

心情大转变的一天.....

第一件事，原本我不想写出来....

但到了这个地步，我想我一定要做出解释....

今天他走过来告诉我.....

yong wai yan, u dun border what people said something bad about you behind of you....

then I said: just said it out.....

then he said: they ask me, why is it all tis are ur jobs, n u gv all to me n do it....

.........

when i heard tis I asked: who r the one said tis? Is it KM ?

then he said: I cannot said is only her....

Implication === that mean KM oso said that la.....

I feel sad n angry,

I am handling for the PBSM works,

I just ask him help me to inform the attlets also my false???

His name is written there ok???

so, he do the jobs have the problems is it????

somemore I only ask him to do this....

why do you all got many comment here and there....

is it a kapten giving the instruction to his admin to do works also cannot???

IsitIdont have the rite.....

Thus I bla bla everything at canteen.....

then after that, there is a gal come n told me....

Warren, u r wrong oledi.....

he told people,

u misunderstanding oledi....

KM was talk about TS not you.....

u think i m stupid???

He is not the kapten, will he said that.....

then reach statium.....

another story come out again....

Warren, sorry, u misunderstanding oledi....

not KM said u de, is TS said u de.....

LOL....already 3 story.....which to believe???

which one is the real story????

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part 2..... something make me feel touch and happy.....

thank all my red house attlets......
Rumah Merah was the last one in sukan tara.....

but in this 2 day....

i m sure.... we gone up oledi....

hahahaha....

thank guys.....

thank you u all play for Rumah merah....

run for Rumah Merah.....

I really appreciate with what all of you have did.....

thank.....

they are few i would like to give a special thank.....

1st. Lee Pui Ling.....excellent runner from P2......

at 1st.... rumah merah was the last oledi....but this gal....

i dun noe wat to decribe....LOL....

she run back to 3rd place.....somemore the distance between 2nd is extremely near....

in fact we oledi lose 1 circle oledi....but at the end....

cut until about 20cm.....LOL

next.....

Lau Jing Yee....

my Remjam Lembing attlet....

thank gal...u pecat record for me....hahahaha

then Mr.Handsome Jack Dee

thank...u really realise what u had promise me oh.....

hahahaha....

in fact i want to belanja you Mc Donald....

if u c tis....

come n pura-pura ask me...for sure I will belanja u....bcoz...

u run me a champion for 4*400....

hahahaha....n u break a record oso....thank.....

My vice president....

thank a lot....

u really try ur best to look all the excellent attlets for me....i really thank a lot

offcoz...

thank oso for ur lompat kijang.....

champion.....

hahahaha

Thank all my olahragawan and olahragawati.....

thank a lot....

and remember practise for the Sport day....if you all win champion....

i belanja all of you drink 100 plus....

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disappointment.....

i can't even imagine.....

in your opinion....

i m such a terrible person.....

I am sorry....

another story....

==.....

LY told me the one KM mention is TS....

because she wan to help WH....

in fact KM reli said abt me.....LOL.....

may i noe....which part of the story is the real story???

tis afternoon u scold me tat badly....

because I had misunderstand you....

then at nite....u message me again....

said sorry to me....

because all that is said by you....

which is the real???

tell me.....

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last one,

to Mr. Fucker.....

i super damn angry with you....

fuck you....

he is ur farther ok....

u ask him to die???

diu u....

who said oli the rich guys, their children oli will bring them for consultation doctor???

if you not willing to fetch him....

just keep ur mouth shut up....

we all got car....

we all got license....

no nid u....

u said like tis....

no matter how much god u have pray....

oso useless.....

u say ur father like this....

then u r damn poor....

that mean later u cant walk...

then nobody will fetch to get the consultation from doctor.....

as u said if he aa million riggit then everybody are willing to fetch.....

but i got nth....

diu u....

go to let people fuck u la......Ji bai.....

at this moment....I really don't know what to said.....

Since I coming to Pre-University.....

I think this is the 2nd time I scolded people that fear....

1st time is in prefect room....

but this time I am in 6AA...

I am totally dissapointed with this batch of Lower 6....

just a simple task.....

they also cannot full-fill with it.....

and gave all the nonsense reason and show me all the stupid face expression....

I am so angry....

We had did all the preparation work....

you all just continue....

is it like that also cannot???

I would like to say....

once you step into Pre-U in SMK Jinjang....

please be ready to serve the school....

if you all are not willing to do this....

please go to colleges....

I dun wan to know about the process....

I just want to know the result...

your guys dont have the teamwork....

you come and tell me....

then you want me to build up your teamwork is it???

Nonsense.....

what the hell.....

you never listen to our speech....

when we ask...can u understand....

and you all just keep quiet there....

come to the end tell me....

you are misunderstanding with what we said....

We are giving the instruction to you....

not asking the opinion from you....

ok????

to: XXX XXXX XXX

en.....in fact....

i really care about what you said,

what you write.....

everytime....

i keep telling myself....

Warren...give up la....

but i dun noe why....

the 1st action i do after sign in the facebook....

i will click...K... ...

then read about your status.....

read about your post....your comments.....

haiz....

when you write something....

I will keep thinking....

are you talking about me???

Am I do something disappointed you???

but....

everytime i also think by myself....

i dont even brave enough to pick up my phone....

and type message to you....

even I want to do that.....

but I know I shouldn't....

I know If i do that just will make you in the trouble....

today....

i saw you post something again....

but this time....that is a different.....

because I know i am wrong....

I asked all the people except you....

but actually i wanna to ask...

but don't know why....

all my confidence gone....

when wanna talk to you....

everytime I wanna to tell you something....

I will keep asking myself....

should I?? or ask others else to inform you....

when i read that....

my tear start flowing out without my control.....

can you please....

tell me.....what is your thinking now.....

please....

can you tell me....

do you love me or got feel with me or not actually.....

please....

I noe I dun have the right....

i dun hv the criteria that you ask for....

I tell you....

whatever I did....

I just hope you can come toward me n ask me....

Warren, are you ok??? dont give up....

I will always be your side....

but I never hear this at all before.....

can you???

that KinD of FeELing.....

today my my mid-year examination start.....

you going to pas your STPM later can be seen from the result that you obtain this time....

but I not really agree with it....

because certain subjects the questions already bocoh......

this is the traditional Train.....

today, while I am answering the question for Paper 1.....

OMG.....what the hack with me.....

all the questions are exactly with what are given by teachers.....

so lucky i did.....

but i don't have the answers la....

dasar luar......all come from text book....and yet I didn't study.....

that is not the important things.....

while I am answering the questions.....

I can strong feel that kind of pressure is come toward me.....

My speed in answering the questions had accelerated from time to time......

until a limit.....

i know I am in TENSION already.....

I ask the permission to go toilet.....

if not I know I going to struggle later.....

this is the first time I faced this kind of problems......

OMG......

what wrong????

this give me an implication that I should well prepare before entering the examination hall.....

Love issue again......

from day to day....

I become confusing n confusing.....

today.....

I finally take my courage asked her the questions....

Do you fall in love with XX XXX XXXX????

even the answers given by her are not clear.....

but I can do nothings....

but just waiting for her to tell me the true......

If you she this....

I just have a simple question wanna to know the answer.....

do you love me??? do you want me to waiting for you????

that all I wanna to noe.....

thank......

No matter what you did to me.....

No matter what will happen to me in the future.....

No matter who you choose.....

I wanna to said.....

you are in my heart......

I never regret fall in love with you.......

never think on others things......

actually i wanna to share about the Pre-University Orientation day in our school....

but I am too lazy to recall because today I am extreme tired.....

tomorrow the life back to normal....

study like mad....

Khar Mun:

i wrote that not because I wanna you to think of all that....

I just wanna to express my feeling....

I hope you can really understand what is in my mind.....

actually I really know a lot of things.....

but that is pass.....

i just hope u dun keep thinking the negative things.....

you really dont need to said sorry to me....

I never sorry me actually.....

I can accept anythings that the god wanna me to overcome....

i NOE that is the challenge given by GOD.....

Lastly, I hope you dont keep turn around here.....

dun keep thinking whatever decision u make will hurt me.....

actually I am nothing oledi.....

I can receive any impulse given......

just concentrate on the study.....

if you really wanna to HELP me....

please help me in my study.....

some of it I really cannot catch up....

Last time u sat beside me....

anythings I also can ask u....

but now....

I am waiting for u to back here........

the true..........

In fact, there were a lot of things happen in my life in the past few month.....

everything like turning 180 degree.....

so are joys.....

but most r sorrow......

I already dont noe where to start.....

may be from the time u noe I already fall in with you.....

erm....actually.... i never plan to tell you about this.....

but may be my action shows I fall in with you......

do u noe.....actually i plan to give up silently.....

but because u come n talk to me.....

You said.....

I got a little feel with you but doen't mean that i willn't fall in with with you after STPM

because of this simple sentence.....

I plan not to give up......

but what I obtain from you later all are something hurt me in deep............

1st is Jin Wen news.....

at 1st I m thinking may be because u reli love him in deep before ba.....

but since I observe from day to day....

this reason is unacceptable......

You told Wai Hong there are somethings that you dun like about me:

1. i like to scold bad words...

2. I am over confidence....

3. I like to show off

4. I like to make myself be busy.....

1st reason i accept....i promise i will change it.....but the rest sorry.....

I would like to said that,

LOVE is not oli the feeling but also the ways u accept my weakness......

you never ask me the reason behind n yet u justify me with that.....

I m reli sad....

now let me tell you the true.....

I m over confidence....ya I m...

but do you because of this confidence and thus I able to live until today....

u said....everytime when I get my results back....

for sure I will ask....Why is it I m wrong??? I feel I m correct.....

this is my normal reaction.....

do you noe....

I m actually never think about I m correct.....

I just wanna to noe the reason why is it my answer were not acceptable by teachers.....

so that I wouldn't make the same mistakes again.....

but for u....that is a sign of I m too confidence to myself.....

n yet u din come n tell me.....

but go n tell others.....

this can be seen u r not trust on me.....

I feel sad about tis.....

I like to show off....

Yes, I am.....

but do you noe the reason????

Y you never ask me or even tell me about ur feeling.....

Dont you think that I will noe about it????

when you growing up in the family like me.....

I m sure u can fully understand me.....

I am sorry to said.....

I not as lucky as you.....

ur parents might be the richest in ur father side family....

but I m not.....

everytime when I back to my father's side.....

I have one kind of extremely strong feeling.....

that kind of feeling non one can understand with it.....

My mum was bullied by them.....

We were criticized by those nonsense people.....

even my mum brought me a lap top oso get scolded from them.....

I grow in a very unfortune family....

My father like to gambling.....

all my daily expenses are fully from my mum.....

when you alway bullied by people....

what you will do???

for me.....

i will show all the best about myself to everybody.....

I dont want to be looking down by others anymore....

I extremely hate tis kind of feeling.....

thus I like to show off infront of you all....

I wanna to get the recognation from everyone of you....

only like this I can live longer.....

now can you understand me????

I like to make myself in busy.....

actually for me.....

I just want to help her....

I dont want sth make me feel uncomfortable.....

sometime.....

that is not necessary for us to solve the problems when it is appear....

we should settle with it be4 it appear....

about tis I really have to say sorry to u....

may b bcoz of tis reason.....

n I have ignored u.....

I m sorry......

there r one thing that I m extremely confusing.....

actually do you love me????

that is sth that I really wanna to noe.....

U tell me u dun love me....u just treat me as ur bro.....

but u told wai hong....

u love me.....

I dun noe which to listen????

n 1 more things.....

when i talk to the gal....

I mean Li Yong n Shi Ling they all.....

y do u want to eat vinegar????

actually i just treat them as friends.....

n u not comfortable with it....

u can tell me.....

no nid to tell Wai Hong actually.....

I really dun noe ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope after u reading my blog.....

u can noe wat is in my mind.....

n wat is in ur mind.....

i noe u will get angry after reading tis....

but tat is all rite.....

let u to noe the true n make u angry is much much better than tell lies to u.......