真心真的会感动到人吗？

有者曾说，当你拿出真心对待他人时，

他必定会以真心对待于你....

真心，

可以让人感动....

真心，

绝对不会受到不公平的待遇....

事实真的如此？

我以最真诚的心，

与你交朋友，

到最后换来的？

原来

由始至终，

在你心中，

我只是一件道具.....

我在想....

被利用是一件好事吗？

这代表我有利用价值.....

有人告诉我说，

你能被利用，

是一件好事....

至少他知道你的强处，

至少他知道利用你期间，

他真的需要你，

他已承认你的重要，你的特点....

总比那些连被利用的机会都没有的人来得好.....

我想说，

说真的，

如果你是以真心和我做朋友，

我根本不介意被你利用，

但是，

我很介意，

由始至终，

你都只当我是一件道具，

一件用完就可以丢的道具....

如果这话从别人口中说出，

我根本不介意，

但是，

为什么是你？

也许是上天的指示，

让我无意中发现这事，

要不，

我想，

我还是笨笨的相信你....

也许，

我真的不应该把一个人放的太重在我的心中，

因为，

对他而言，

我也许什么都不是......

我真的伤了，而且伤的很重，很重....

从前，

我认为交朋友都是互利相用....

是一群朋友，

改变了我的想法.....

在我最难过，

在我最低落时，

他们陪伴着我，

中学毕业后，

我们朝着自己的梦想出发，

每个人都在不同的角落奋斗，

而我来到了南马，

在一个之前完全不曾到来的地方奋斗。

来到大学，

是我人生新一页的开始，

来到这里，

认识了一群来自不同各地的朋友....

来到这里，

我拿出真心和每个人交友....

在这当中，

我对你是最真诚，

最用心，

我不是要和你计较....

我不是要和你算...

但是，

对你，

我真的牺牲了很多，

你一句“我找不到assignment的资料”，

我伪装的从不同的 “website”“copy and paste”，

但事实上，我是一个一个字打....

也许在你心中，

我是自己犯贱，

再说你也没避我。

但我为你牺牲了这么多，

即使没有一些感动，

也不必把我伤的那么的深....

之前，

我问你，

你值得我相信吗？

你告诉我说，

可以！

但现在你做的一切，

都犹如刀刺入我心中，

狠狠的一刀....

让我流下了眼泪....

好一句，

 “Now I need him, after work, I will kick him away"....

我想，

我永远都忘不了....

友谊？

朋友？

还是用具？

我真的真的分不清楚.....

what is so truth???

I don't know what is so call truth....
start having a feeling of scary on you....
I don't know am I asking too much from you...
OR
you contribute too less toward this project....
I not complaint anything....
just may be i so call KL people kua....

I don't really like to do my work at the last minute....
I never aspect a perfect work...
but I aspect the hardwork....
you don't even try....

disappointed.....

I promise myself....
in this 4 year...
not to in the relationship....
not to fall in love with anyone....
sorry for the girl that admire me so much...
sorry....
I has my plans....
my dreams....
to achieve....
I don't mind to be close friend with you....
to share your joys...
your sorrows....
but sure not be your boyfriend.....

hahahahaha.........
my mum will be my girlfriend right now....
so sorry la....don't dream....XP

感想...

每个人带着不同的目标，不同的梦想来到大学....

有人打算混混濯濯地在大学混个四年...
出到去就是大学生一名...
再说，大学生嘛！找份工作也比较容易...
薪水总比那些没读大学的人来得高...
工作起来业比较轻松....

有人带着父母的梦想来到大学...
为他的父母门，
考取一个学位....
好让他们容光耀祖....

有人是为着自己从小的梦想而来....
来到大学发奋努力的学习....
成绩总是比他人优秀....

有人说，
来到大学，
就是你人生中最大得荣幸....

再多几天,
我大学生活的第二个考试就要来临....
我倍感压力....
有人叫我不要拿别人来比....
赢了自己就好....
不要如此的压力....
但其实又有谁懂我的感想呢？

每错，
父母是不会给我任何的压力....
但从小就被别人看扁的那种感觉又有谁能够理解???
如果有的选择，
谁不像轻轻松松地过呢???

我不是你眼中的爱比...
如果你曾今受过像我般的耻辱....
我想你肯定不会有如此的说法....
没关系,
没人了解，对我而言，
已经是一件再普通不过的事了....

rolling in LovE.....

can't you feel it?
I love you...
can't you feel it?
I want you to care about me...
can't you feel it?
I willing to sacrify everything for you...
can't you feel it?
I hope you can company with me all the time...
can't you feel it?
when you are sad, I am sad too...
can't you feel it?
I wish to share your hapiness...
can't you feel it?
I am jealous when you are taking photo with else one...
can't you feel it?
I want you treat me better than anyone...

but,
all this is just a dream...
a dream that will never come truth....
I know that is imposible for us to be continue...
I know you will care about how others looking at us....
I know you love me too....
but,
that is imposible for us to be together...
anyway,
I still want to say,
sorry that,
I love you....
I love you,
more than what you think....

but,
i will secret all this in the deep of my heart....
wait for you,
for you to open it....
I still waiting the day to come truth....
I hope it is not a dream....
but it happen to my life....
because
I really
LOVE YOU.....

hurt feeling.....

一把锐利的刀,
狠狠地插入心中；
血不停地流，
但却痛的哭不出声，
只有那如瀑布的眼泪直奔，
不祈求得救，
只祈求一句简单的慰问....

心中虽然知道这一切的一切，
都不会发生，
但心中还是期望那一线的希望.....
一句简单的话，
是绝对能够融化心中的冰山....

这个时候的苦恼，
这个时候的悲伤，
这个时候的思念，
这个时候的心情，
这个时候的眼泪....
又有谁能够理解，
又有谁能够体会.....

那我只好孤单的一个人，
锁在房里，
默默地哭泣....

2nd week in UTHM

this was the 2nd week I am UTHM,
the lecturer class start,
I had attended Academic English, Programming, Engineer and society and also Engineering Math 1,
some of these lecturer are good, but some so so....
I was recall back....
Am I suitable to be an engineer???
the 1st day of my class,
I already in trouble....
computer programming,
I cant understand what the hack it talking about....
n today engineering math 1,
I already forget every single thing that I learn in Pre-U...
so should I be here???
I am thinking..........

next about my life over here,
I am happy and glad to know a group of friends here....
I not sure it is my problem or what else......
sometime I do really feel like that is a big GAP between I and them........
no matter how i try my very best to interact with them......
but i still can't fully participate in that....
may be because of my thinking or what........

the relationship between I and you is just a friend...
I not sure what will happen in future.....
but at least i know so far I never plan anything about her.....
so,
YOU,
pls..........
pls..........
i treat u as my best friends,
may be for u, I am not......
may be for u, I am just nothing........
but,
pls..............
don't push me to side,
it is HURT!!!!!!!!!!
My tear was flow out during the orientation week while you guys was leaving me alone n
sit with else one............
can you
pls????

Orientation week at UTHM....

2nd of September,
I reach UTHM - Universiti Terhebat Malaysia..
I register myself over there,
my coursemate + hoursemate Benjamin message me n tell me he was done his registration....
after taking a period of time to processing all the stuff....
at last I reach PEWIRA, my hostel...
when I reach there, Benjamin was there,
he saw me n come forward to me...
he direct me to the counter to carry out the registration....
when I get my key,
I go into my hostel,
surprisingly,
I same house with benjamin...
muahahaha,
my 1st friend over here....
he is a nice person,
gentlemen, great, caring....
I am happy to know him

after settle down everything,
my orientation start.....
at 1st we gather with the principle of PEWIRA,
after he gave all the speech
we go into the UTHM main campus
(as my hostel is allocated outside the campus)
the 1st day, we already being caught catch....
listen to all the nonsense talk until midnight,
then have to follow those stupid action act by the seniors...
when we reach the hostel already 1am,
after took a bath it alrady midnight....

the next day,
we have to wake up at 530am....
really what the FXXK...

one day, there is a talk,
i being seperated from friends,
sitting alone with malay around,
at that moment,
my feeling,
my emotion....
my everything....
I almost crying,
but I din as i tell myself I shouldn't do that,
as i choose to be here....
at that moment,
I was thinking give up,
go back to KL,
pick up my dream, Law Field,
but I don't do that....


what I wish now,
ORIENTATION WEEK END  FASTER..........HAIZ.........
TIRED AND SUFFER.......

Engineering and Law....

currently....I heard a lot of comment from my friends.....
they ask me....
" Warren, are you sure you want to go for engineering not law???"
I was confusing before this.....
the main reason I choose engineering not Law is because of MONEY ....
study Law in Private Uni required RM 160,000.....
but I complete my 4 years engineer course in Public University on;y required RM 20,000
what a big gap....
I am not from a rich background....
I not complaining....
as My mum mentioned before,
you can go ahead whatever you like.......
but i know.....
study law, is my interest....
but not my in my ability..........
not affordable.............
engineering???
electrical engineering???
do I like it???
I don't know....
but I know I can try it....
bright future???
I don't know....
I just know.....
in future.......
network will control the world........
Telecommunication Engineering will be a good choice too.......

and my quotation.....
wherever you are, whatever you do.......the only method and only road toward success only have 1 which is work hard to kill down all of the obstacle ..........


GOOD LUCK WARREN, GOOD LUCK GUYS, GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO ARE GOING TO UNI SOON..........ALL THE BEST...............

running tOward my DreAM, My fUtUrE.....

after STPM examination,
there is a period of time,
I never touch anything related to my study...
I went to SJK C Lai Chee,
work over there,
seriously, I did learnt a lot from there,
the interaction among the parents, teachers and my dear students.

10 of August,
I leave the school,
even the school doesn't ready me a great ceremony,
but I am happy enough,
because I am the 1st temporary teacher in that school who have a small ceremony saying good bye to me
the principal represent the school present me a pen.
Some of the teacher and students gave me the present...I quick happy....

the time I leave there,
It mean I going to start my new life,
my university life...
my degree
electrical engineering in communication,
a new task in my life....

in a day of July 2012,
I receive an offer letter from Universiti Tun Hussein Onn,
at the moment,
I not really happy with it,
because my dream university, Universiti Teknologi Malaysia doesn't offer me any courses...
is very fast...
we have a small gathering,
to discuss about what we got...
a lot of my friends get the offer from UMS n UNIMAS,
they have to fly over there....

after discussing with my friends around me....
I feel like I am one of the lucky person,
I get a university that nearby KL,
I get a popular faculty,
electrical and electronic engineering,
even the university not popular as others,
it is still new,
but at least the course I get is a good course......

I start asking myself,
why do we study so hard?????
we just ask for job opportunity,
we asking for high payment,
so that we can live in a better life or wht we say luxurious life
therefore,
electrical engineering in communication might provide a good opportunity to me in future.........
start from that time,
i change my mind....
UTHM not really bad........
it is a good engineering university too..........
I am happy to be there........
because I know I have a group of good coursemates.....

UTHM,
I am cOming!!!!!!!!!
http://youtu.be/BavIRh6M7P4

运程与命运....

今年，
不知为何比往年来的迷信....
也许是在中五的时候受到了很大的打击....
所以，
从那时开始，
我开始相信神....
我已经做了我该做的东西....
接下来，
就给呈交给上帝去做了....
Madam Tian 常说:" try your best, do your best, leave the rest to god...."
now,
I finish my STPM,
I pray hardly everyday.....
I hope the god help me....
I don't asking for a lot....
I just wish the god don't give too much of challenges to me....

今年，
过年来的比往年沉闷....
我的过年活动就在facebook, blogging....
不知哪来的灵感，
我上了youtube,
打了“2012生肖运程”....
找到了，
听了好几个....
肖猴，
有贵人暗中相助....
会破财（去买些心头好吧）。。。。
我不是不相信，但我又希望有人帮我....
但我始终认为，
他（运程）
只是条引导线....
无论你的运气在好，
若你只懂得在一旁颓废....
在好的运气，
也于事无补.....

希望得到上帝的眷爱....
保佑我，
STPM 拿到我理想的成绩.....
进到我理想的大学.....
god bless me please.....

我有话要说.....

之前，我总是听到计划永远赶不上变化....
这次，我真的体会到这讲法...
原本计划在增江北区华小教书到7月....
要教些什么，要用些什么办法去帮他们....
全都在我的计划大全里.....
但上天偏偏就是那么的偏爱我....
要我尝试些新东西....
终于，那有责任感的教育局.....
派出了两位抱负了教育下一代的使命的伟大教育家....
一位是骑着马到来，一位则是乘搭龙舟到来的....
骑马来的是来代替我的，也就是教英文....
说真的，我为我的学生捏了把冷汗....
不是racist而是我拿到的班全都是后面班.....
他们连"please take out your english text book and all the exercise books"
都不明白....
我在想，接下来他们怎么办？？？
但我不能做些什么....
因为我走，是一个改变不了的 事实....
上帝为他们选着了这条路，
那就给看他们如何去走这条路....
希望他们能够度过这挑战.....

缘分，
让我来到了励志华小....
让我经历一个不同的人生....
在这，我看到了欺善怕恶....
我看到了能者多劳....
我看到了霸道....
我看到了无理取闹....
在这，
托北区校长的福，
来到这，受何校长的爱戴....
也托郑副德福，
来到这，受到颜副的细心相助.....
我无缘无故的成为了GURU SMM (Sistem Maklumat Murid)
无缘无故，须要帮一群“很忙”的电脑白痴打东西....
无缘无故的被那种做事情很有逻辑性的人骂我们guru smm头脑有问题，
做东西不符合逻辑.....
笑话，真是笑话....

离开了北区小学，
心乃然在那....
不懂何来的冲动....
就是想帮他们....
我疼爱的学生....
为什么？？？
因为在我还不懂我就来离开那间学校时，
我问了他们，
谁是真的想把英文学好....
我也答应了他们，
我会帮你们.....
可惜，可惜....
后来，我有了个想法，
给予他们免费的补习班，
可惜，
我的能力有限，
只好到处寻找同伴，
过程还满吃力，
幸亏，获得了上帝的爱戴，
我找到了同伴....
一群愿意和我出生入死....
一群愿意和我抱着相同使命，
为社会付出少少的贡献....

其实，
再这前，因为某些原因，
让我曾想放弃......
但因为一个家长的鼓励，
一位家长的认同.....
一群北区老师的认可....
让我的那股热情从新燃起.....
让我觉得我因该帮他们......
现在，
我的教育团对已建立起来.....
虽然人数屈指可数.....
但我们的目标必能实现....
现在只需等校方的配合.....
但愿一切能顺利完成.....


今天，
新年了，
今年的新年与往年来的不同....
今年，
没有往年的年三十晚，就只有年二十九.....
今年，
收到的第一封红包不是来自家人，
而是一位认识不到两天的老师.....
今年，
团圆饭，没有了婆婆的声音，
且多了叔母的声音.....
今年，
少了父母给予的压岁钱，
因为婆婆刚刚去世，
家人不能给红包....
外嫁女除外....

最后，
我祝各位
新年快乐，万事如意，身体健康，学业猛进，STPM好成绩，进到大学去，事事都顺利....

但愿上帝的庇佑，我们事事顺利，万事安康....

1st Job working experience.....

I lost my direction while I end my STPM examination.....

while waiting the result come out.....

I plan to look for work on the other hand polish up my english standard.....

seen everything not as smooth as what I was plan.....

but come to the end I found a job....

which is recommended by Wai Hong....

Become the temporary teacher at SRJK C Jinjang Utara....

the salary not high but the working hours is short....

the 1st day I went....

When I got my time table....

I had a kind of feeling....

can i run away from here....???

teaching Music??? Geography??? Life's Technic??? PJK????.....

so many subject and most of it are not my favourite.....

but I don't runs away from there.....

since I look fear enough.....

all my students scared of me....

and obeys with what I said....

many teachers wondering why???

and I am proud of it....XP

I start learning all the music theory from zero.....

I start teaching geography with no maps.....

steps by steps.....

I get all the behind classes.....

xcept for english and sivik.....

many people think that 8 days....

the relationship between I and my students will not strong....

I do have the same opinion....

yesterday....

I receive the news from PK1...

saying that next Monday there are 2 new teachers coming....

so any 2 of us have to go....

I choose to go....

the reason.....

I tough I am nothing......

but after that I feel I have something......

especially I saw my students down and sad.....

when I told them the news.....

when my english senior teacher ask me don't go.....

OMG.....I pretend like nothing.....

I love my students....

I do really put in a lot of afford in teaching them.....

especially my english class.....

i guild them for all the reading and listening parts.....

I practice with them everyday......

why just because of the jabatan send 2 people here.....

my plans all gone.....

even I know god had open another door for me at SMK Jinjang.....

but I worry about my year 2 students.....

do they able to interact with the new Mala's English teacher???

they are just year 2....

can they understand????

may god bless us able to catch up with that.....

My year 5 class.....

will u all study hrd and start ready for next year UPSR????

I have no idea....

May god bless you hard working.....

score your UPSR with flying colour next year.....

My year 6 class.....

will u all change ur study's attitude???

can u all polish up ur Malay???

I have no ideas???

I can't help you all anymore....

I have to leave.....

May god bless u pass ur malay n english.....

Mansell,

I am supprise that u cry because of I am leaving the school....

anywhere....you are my good monitor.....

you must study hard....

i can see you have a great future.....

May god bless you success in life......

sorry.....I also wish to stay.....

but I have no choice.....

if I can stay....

I will try my best to guild you guys up.....

I will help you guys.....

what can I do now....

is just waiting until the Monday....

wish the new teachers are not coming....

that all............

If I really leave.....

then good bye SRJK C Jinjang Utara.....

thank to all people who had help me out while I am teaching here......

touch.....XP......

god bless you all.....

and I love you all.....