心情大转变的一天.....

第一件事，原本我不想写出来....

但到了这个地步，我想我一定要做出解释....

今天他走过来告诉我.....

yong wai yan, u dun border what people said something bad about you behind of you....

then I said: just said it out.....

then he said: they ask me, why is it all tis are ur jobs, n u gv all to me n do it....

.........

when i heard tis I asked: who r the one said tis? Is it KM ?

then he said: I cannot said is only her....

Implication === that mean KM oso said that la.....

I feel sad n angry,

I am handling for the PBSM works,

I just ask him help me to inform the attlets also my false???

His name is written there ok???

so, he do the jobs have the problems is it????

somemore I only ask him to do this....

why do you all got many comment here and there....

is it a kapten giving the instruction to his admin to do works also cannot???

IsitIdont have the rite.....

Thus I bla bla everything at canteen.....

then after that, there is a gal come n told me....

Warren, u r wrong oledi.....

he told people,

u misunderstanding oledi....

KM was talk about TS not you.....

u think i m stupid???

He is not the kapten, will he said that.....

then reach statium.....

another story come out again....

Warren, sorry, u misunderstanding oledi....

not KM said u de, is TS said u de.....

LOL....already 3 story.....which to believe???

which one is the real story????

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part 2..... something make me feel touch and happy.....

thank all my red house attlets......
Rumah Merah was the last one in sukan tara.....

but in this 2 day....

i m sure.... we gone up oledi....

hahahaha....

thank guys.....

thank you u all play for Rumah merah....

run for Rumah Merah.....

I really appreciate with what all of you have did.....

thank.....

they are few i would like to give a special thank.....

1st. Lee Pui Ling.....excellent runner from P2......

at 1st.... rumah merah was the last oledi....but this gal....

i dun noe wat to decribe....LOL....

she run back to 3rd place.....somemore the distance between 2nd is extremely near....

in fact we oledi lose 1 circle oledi....but at the end....

cut until about 20cm.....LOL

next.....

Lau Jing Yee....

my Remjam Lembing attlet....

thank gal...u pecat record for me....hahahaha

then Mr.Handsome Jack Dee

thank...u really realise what u had promise me oh.....

hahahaha....

in fact i want to belanja you Mc Donald....

if u c tis....

come n pura-pura ask me...for sure I will belanja u....bcoz...

u run me a champion for 4*400....

hahahaha....n u break a record oso....thank.....

My vice president....

thank a lot....

u really try ur best to look all the excellent attlets for me....i really thank a lot

offcoz...

thank oso for ur lompat kijang.....

champion.....

hahahaha

Thank all my olahragawan and olahragawati.....

thank a lot....

and remember practise for the Sport day....if you all win champion....

i belanja all of you drink 100 plus....

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disappointment.....

i can't even imagine.....

in your opinion....

i m such a terrible person.....

I am sorry....

another story....

==.....

LY told me the one KM mention is TS....

because she wan to help WH....

in fact KM reli said abt me.....LOL.....

may i noe....which part of the story is the real story???

tis afternoon u scold me tat badly....

because I had misunderstand you....

then at nite....u message me again....

said sorry to me....

because all that is said by you....

which is the real???

tell me.....

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last one,

to Mr. Fucker.....

i super damn angry with you....

fuck you....

he is ur farther ok....

u ask him to die???

diu u....

who said oli the rich guys, their children oli will bring them for consultation doctor???

if you not willing to fetch him....

just keep ur mouth shut up....

we all got car....

we all got license....

no nid u....

u said like tis....

no matter how much god u have pray....

oso useless.....

u say ur father like this....

then u r damn poor....

that mean later u cant walk...

then nobody will fetch to get the consultation from doctor.....

as u said if he aa million riggit then everybody are willing to fetch.....

but i got nth....

diu u....

go to let people fuck u la......Ji bai.....

at this moment....I really don't know what to said.....

Since I coming to Pre-University.....

I think this is the 2nd time I scolded people that fear....

1st time is in prefect room....

but this time I am in 6AA...

I am totally dissapointed with this batch of Lower 6....

just a simple task.....

they also cannot full-fill with it.....

and gave all the nonsense reason and show me all the stupid face expression....

I am so angry....

We had did all the preparation work....

you all just continue....

is it like that also cannot???

I would like to say....

once you step into Pre-U in SMK Jinjang....

please be ready to serve the school....

if you all are not willing to do this....

please go to colleges....

I dun wan to know about the process....

I just want to know the result...

your guys dont have the teamwork....

you come and tell me....

then you want me to build up your teamwork is it???

Nonsense.....

what the hell.....

you never listen to our speech....

when we ask...can u understand....

and you all just keep quiet there....

come to the end tell me....

you are misunderstanding with what we said....

We are giving the instruction to you....

not asking the opinion from you....

ok????

to: XXX XXXX XXX

en.....in fact....

i really care about what you said,

what you write.....

everytime....

i keep telling myself....

Warren...give up la....

but i dun noe why....

the 1st action i do after sign in the facebook....

i will click...K... ...

then read about your status.....

read about your post....your comments.....

haiz....

when you write something....

I will keep thinking....

are you talking about me???

Am I do something disappointed you???

but....

everytime i also think by myself....

i dont even brave enough to pick up my phone....

and type message to you....

even I want to do that.....

but I know I shouldn't....

I know If i do that just will make you in the trouble....

today....

i saw you post something again....

but this time....that is a different.....

because I know i am wrong....

I asked all the people except you....

but actually i wanna to ask...

but don't know why....

all my confidence gone....

when wanna talk to you....

everytime I wanna to tell you something....

I will keep asking myself....

should I?? or ask others else to inform you....

when i read that....

my tear start flowing out without my control.....

can you please....

tell me.....what is your thinking now.....

please....

can you tell me....

do you love me or got feel with me or not actually.....

please....

I noe I dun have the right....

i dun hv the criteria that you ask for....

I tell you....

whatever I did....

I just hope you can come toward me n ask me....

Warren, are you ok??? dont give up....

I will always be your side....

but I never hear this at all before.....

can you???

that KinD of FeELing.....

today my my mid-year examination start.....

you going to pas your STPM later can be seen from the result that you obtain this time....

but I not really agree with it....

because certain subjects the questions already bocoh......

this is the traditional Train.....

today, while I am answering the question for Paper 1.....

OMG.....what the hack with me.....

all the questions are exactly with what are given by teachers.....

so lucky i did.....

but i don't have the answers la....

dasar luar......all come from text book....and yet I didn't study.....

that is not the important things.....

while I am answering the questions.....

I can strong feel that kind of pressure is come toward me.....

My speed in answering the questions had accelerated from time to time......

until a limit.....

i know I am in TENSION already.....

I ask the permission to go toilet.....

if not I know I going to struggle later.....

this is the first time I faced this kind of problems......

OMG......

what wrong????

this give me an implication that I should well prepare before entering the examination hall.....

Love issue again......

from day to day....

I become confusing n confusing.....

today.....

I finally take my courage asked her the questions....

Do you fall in love with XX XXX XXXX????

even the answers given by her are not clear.....

but I can do nothings....

but just waiting for her to tell me the true......

If you she this....

I just have a simple question wanna to know the answer.....

do you love me??? do you want me to waiting for you????

that all I wanna to noe.....

thank......

No matter what you did to me.....

No matter what will happen to me in the future.....

No matter who you choose.....

I wanna to said.....

you are in my heart......

I never regret fall in love with you.......

never think on others things......

actually i wanna to share about the Pre-University Orientation day in our school....

but I am too lazy to recall because today I am extreme tired.....

tomorrow the life back to normal....

study like mad....

Khar Mun:

i wrote that not because I wanna you to think of all that....

I just wanna to express my feeling....

I hope you can really understand what is in my mind.....

actually I really know a lot of things.....

but that is pass.....

i just hope u dun keep thinking the negative things.....

you really dont need to said sorry to me....

I never sorry me actually.....

I can accept anythings that the god wanna me to overcome....

i NOE that is the challenge given by GOD.....

Lastly, I hope you dont keep turn around here.....

dun keep thinking whatever decision u make will hurt me.....

actually I am nothing oledi.....

I can receive any impulse given......

just concentrate on the study.....

if you really wanna to HELP me....

please help me in my study.....

some of it I really cannot catch up....

Last time u sat beside me....

anythings I also can ask u....

but now....

I am waiting for u to back here........

the true..........

In fact, there were a lot of things happen in my life in the past few month.....

everything like turning 180 degree.....

so are joys.....

but most r sorrow......

I already dont noe where to start.....

may be from the time u noe I already fall in with you.....

erm....actually.... i never plan to tell you about this.....

but may be my action shows I fall in with you......

do u noe.....actually i plan to give up silently.....

but because u come n talk to me.....

You said.....

I got a little feel with you but doen't mean that i willn't fall in with with you after STPM

because of this simple sentence.....

I plan not to give up......

but what I obtain from you later all are something hurt me in deep............

1st is Jin Wen news.....

at 1st I m thinking may be because u reli love him in deep before ba.....

but since I observe from day to day....

this reason is unacceptable......

You told Wai Hong there are somethings that you dun like about me:

1. i like to scold bad words...

2. I am over confidence....

3. I like to show off

4. I like to make myself be busy.....

1st reason i accept....i promise i will change it.....but the rest sorry.....

I would like to said that,

LOVE is not oli the feeling but also the ways u accept my weakness......

you never ask me the reason behind n yet u justify me with that.....

I m reli sad....

now let me tell you the true.....

I m over confidence....ya I m...

but do you because of this confidence and thus I able to live until today....

u said....everytime when I get my results back....

for sure I will ask....Why is it I m wrong??? I feel I m correct.....

this is my normal reaction.....

do you noe....

I m actually never think about I m correct.....

I just wanna to noe the reason why is it my answer were not acceptable by teachers.....

so that I wouldn't make the same mistakes again.....

but for u....that is a sign of I m too confidence to myself.....

n yet u din come n tell me.....

but go n tell others.....

this can be seen u r not trust on me.....

I feel sad about tis.....

I like to show off....

Yes, I am.....

but do you noe the reason????

Y you never ask me or even tell me about ur feeling.....

Dont you think that I will noe about it????

when you growing up in the family like me.....

I m sure u can fully understand me.....

I am sorry to said.....

I not as lucky as you.....

ur parents might be the richest in ur father side family....

but I m not.....

everytime when I back to my father's side.....

I have one kind of extremely strong feeling.....

that kind of feeling non one can understand with it.....

My mum was bullied by them.....

We were criticized by those nonsense people.....

even my mum brought me a lap top oso get scolded from them.....

I grow in a very unfortune family....

My father like to gambling.....

all my daily expenses are fully from my mum.....

when you alway bullied by people....

what you will do???

for me.....

i will show all the best about myself to everybody.....

I dont want to be looking down by others anymore....

I extremely hate tis kind of feeling.....

thus I like to show off infront of you all....

I wanna to get the recognation from everyone of you....

only like this I can live longer.....

now can you understand me????

I like to make myself in busy.....

actually for me.....

I just want to help her....

I dont want sth make me feel uncomfortable.....

sometime.....

that is not necessary for us to solve the problems when it is appear....

we should settle with it be4 it appear....

about tis I really have to say sorry to u....

may b bcoz of tis reason.....

n I have ignored u.....

I m sorry......

there r one thing that I m extremely confusing.....

actually do you love me????

that is sth that I really wanna to noe.....

U tell me u dun love me....u just treat me as ur bro.....

but u told wai hong....

u love me.....

I dun noe which to listen????

n 1 more things.....

when i talk to the gal....

I mean Li Yong n Shi Ling they all.....

y do u want to eat vinegar????

actually i just treat them as friends.....

n u not comfortable with it....

u can tell me.....

no nid to tell Wai Hong actually.....

I really dun noe ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope after u reading my blog.....

u can noe wat is in my mind.....

n wat is in ur mind.....

i noe u will get angry after reading tis....

but tat is all rite.....

let u to noe the true n make u angry is much much better than tell lies to u.......

从来....

Such a long time I didn't came here to updated my blog.....
this is because i m extremely rushing with my skul works n

I had cut my internet service due to I wanna to concentrated on my examination......

even today....

i m extremly tired.....but i choose to write tis.....

today is Mother's day....I celebrate it mwith my mom n grandmom.....

In fact, we are happy....

but when I need to face a group of nonsense people...

then i feel like.....what the held.....

keep bla bla bla.....

you think you r really good meh......die la....i really hate u all lo..............

if i can choose....

i will choose not to be ur nephew even relative.....

but i m thank to u all actually....

because u all make me have a very strong spirit in fighting wif u all......

There are few things I wanna to tell my family:

1st: My beloved Mother....

Mummy i uderstand what u said.....I know i should be patient n always show the smiling face.....so that nobody can read my mind.....I do agree with you....but u wan me to face them n show my happy face to them....I reli have to said sorry la....i cant do that.....Mum...i noe u have scarify ur whole life for us.....U r my spiritual in my study....I m study for u actually....I wanna to change your life................Thank You mummy....and I LOVE YOU mummy.....Happy Mother's Day.....

2nd: My Daddy.....

Do you think I really like to fight with u, against with u??? I m actually angry with u k???

u r making mummy in trouble....n u noe ur terrible sister r those kind of ppl.....n yet u never protect mummy n us.....make mummy oway bully by them.....that is the reason y i like to fight with u....n can u dun gambling anymore....i reli hate gambling k??? u oledi lost so many things...y do u still wan to practise it.....Do u noe i can be the rich boy study in the top University now...but bcoz of u....my dream all gone.....i dun k about that anymore....can u be a MAN....a RESPONSIBLE husband n father......

3rd: My brother

I noe the relationship between we 2 r not so gud....but i still ur eldest brother.....can u dun be that materialistic......people gv u an i-pad....gv u this kind of materialistic life style then u obey wat they said.....can u be more humanity....She is ur mum k??? she k about u....but have u even gv her a simple call???u dun even come n visit us when u r in KL....i noe we r poor...but we rich with our mind.....but u not......u dun b so stupid.....

4th: My sister....

We oledi look down by them....y cant u study hardly.....dun even let them look down on u anymore.....u think i reli like to study ah.....i oso dun wan....but i noe....education is the oli things can change our life.....do u noe y they dun even brave to challenge me....because i work hard for my study.....thus they dun come across me.....u keep go on9 looking for friends....can they help u when u r in trouble???? Please la.....n dun keep thinking go for college.....Mummy oledi very tired....if u go college the expenses in life increase again....y dun u study hard n enter form 6 then go for local university.....

5th Khar Mun

thank for ur message.....i m really touch by ur message....I m totally forgotten about this.....thank for ur remind.....that time my mood reli bad.....but when i saw ur message.....i reli touch....all my angryness had been melt by ur message....thank......

Lastly, to myself....

this year STPM oledi...dun play play oledi.....please start....remember ur mission n vision....