我的感觉....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想逃离这里的感觉，
远离你，
远离所有让我感到忧虑、紧张、难过.....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想大声呐喊的感觉，
呐喊我心中所有的不快、伤心、愤怒....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想把自己封闭的感觉，
封闭我所有的纳闷、秘密、感情....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想去制造一种药，
让我忘记我对你的一切，
一切的爱、一切的单恋、一切的思念、一切的痛苦....

其实，
这一切都不是我想要的感觉，
我想要得感觉，
是当我有压力时，你给我一个深情的拥抱，
一句温暖我的话，一个愿意陪伴我渡过伤心的灵魂....

我要的是你的感情，
我要的是你的关心，
我要的是你的陪伴。

但是，
又有谁愿意呢？

WHO is the MAIN character in a show???

I would like decribe my life as show....

A show where I have to act, to present at all time....

no retake....go mean go....

I always tell myself ,

not to regret with what I did,

what I choose....

but

seriously,

I am regret now....

I am so regret to be here....

I am so so so regret.......

can't be denied,

I go across a lot of joys and sorrows over this university land....

but 

my tears,

really want to flow out.....

if you are trying to keep a distance with me.....

then do it !!!

make it really happen....

a long long distance.....

don't ever come close to me....

do you know....

sometime....

you treat me nicely....

until a level i don't know how to respond........

but 

sometime.......

I am being ignored by you.......

especially when they are there.......

you know

what is my feeling???

I act nothing........

I keep quiet.......

you alway say I pattern....

have you ever stand on my site......

think from my site???

I have a lot of things to share.....

to tell....

sometime.....

i tell you......

but you giving a feeling you are not willing to lend me you ear.....

may be is our mentality have different thinking.....

different opinion ba.........

today....

we go to bp celebrated our birthday....

when you are taking photo with many others......

but i don't even have one....

oh no...

got one...

being force by people....

haiz....

whatever la.....

all that.....

just my problem.....

let me dissapear from your life.....

from this world.......

goodbye....

goodnight..........

sleeping with my tears.......

alone....

listening to the lonely song......

lying down on the bed....

thinking of my problem alone.......

solving all the obstacle alone...........

life??? 

is alway like that.....

no one will really appreciate you....

love you...

taking care of you ....

other than your parent and you yourselves.......

I am tired with that.....

sorry.....

THE ONE WHO READ THIS....

EVEN YOU KNOW WHO AM I WRITING FOR....

PLEASE KEEP YOU MOUTH SHUT....

DON'T TELL ANYONE.....

I JUST TO BE HERE.....

EXPRESS MY ANGLE.......

DON'T SPOIL THE ONLY PLACE THAT I ABLE TO SPREAD ALL MY EMOTION.......

THANK YOU......

My 21st birthday....

Many people will celebrate their 21st birthday grandly....
how about me???
The day before my birthday,
I am study relaxly for my analog test tomorrow....
nothing that I expect...
other than,
score well for my all coming examination and success in life...
one more......
I love you....
hope you feel it....

Happy Birthday to me.......


http://youtu.be/gAnG1V21TZo

烦!!!

that is a period of time i don't update here....
recently, i quick busy...
busy with with all the proposal for my projects and assignment....
busy with preparing the test....
busy with understanding and digesting all the new things that i had never learn before this....
this semester,
I learn much new things....
I experience more new things....
wiring...build up a single phase circuit.....
AUCAD - drawing of analog circuit
robotics....
a lot more....

learning of this new things....
supposingly i am under big pressure....
but ,
I start to enjoy with what I study now...
what I learn now.........
Unfortunately,
something happen on me....
my faculty,
FKEE wish to rebranding the courses in order to get the accrediction....
with carrying this process.......
my specialization willn't being writen in the certificate when i graduate later.......
luckly,
KPT direct the FKEE management must obtain 100% of agreement from students
before they rebranding the courses....
I am the one who are not willing to sign.......
in fact,
I have think for several times....
I still refuse to sign that....
I not sturborn...
but I have my own reasons...........
seriously....
this issues really bring me down.......
for many people....this is just a small matter....
is just nothing....
but for me.......
what am I here???
that is the only answers.....

人生，总有许许多多的疑惑，
许许多多的问题....
如果， 我可以选择，
我不会选择你，
可是，
爱情，
一个人生最大的难题，
我， 真的没能力，
总是用功课来麻醉自己....
我很想很想与你分享我的一切，
当我有压力时，
你给我一个拥抱，
或是让我静静地拥抱着你，
可惜，
我想很难.....
所有的压力，
就让我自己，
一个人，
默默地...
在深夜里，
解决吧.....

一个不能说的秘密....

周杰伦所领演的不能说的秘密，
到中学时期，老师在考试中所设的考题,
秘密，总是围绕于我们...

在这世界上，
一个人到底有多少个秘密呢？
在这些秘密里，
有多少个又是不能说的呢??

秘密真的是秘密吗？
它又能守着至何时？
俗语常说：
“若要人不知，除非己末为”
“纸是包不住火"
提醒了我，
这世界上，
没有一个真正的秘密....

守护一个秘密，
是很辛苦的，
是需付出代价的....

我想告诉，
原本我打算把这事，
收藏于我内心的最深处，
但，
我真的好辛苦....
我承认，
我爱你，
我不晓得你的想法....
你对我，
时热时冷，
我真的好辛苦....
我不是不愿意,
而是，
我只想与我所爱的人，
和爱我的人，
分享我所拥有的一切....
你对我的突冷突热，
我真的不需要....

谁才是真正的赢家呢？？？

有时在想，
要怎样才能做到最好？
其实，
很简单，
尽力就好...

今天，
我看得出你不是很高兴，
也许感到压力了吧，
当身边的人三两下就把功课完成，
而你，
还在想着如何去做，
不是我不想帮你，
而是，
我真的很怕，很怕....
自己在受伤....
不是我不关心你了....
而是用另一个方法去帮你，
在你没开口前，
我绝对不会出手，
但是，
我依然##你，
##着你，
我能做的，
就那么多....