我心中一个最深处的地方....

一个人在外，
离家里数百公里，
一个人在这里奋斗，
一个人面对着种种的问题，
我心里其实蕴藏着许许多多的压力，
许许多多的秘密，
我心中有许多的苦....
我，
我真的累了，
我真的需要一个人让我依靠，
我真的需要一个人让我拥抱，
我真的需要一个人让我诉苦.....

我一直认为你就是那个人，
所以，
当你悲伤，
当你失落，
当你迷惶，
当你生气，
当你放弃，
我都愿意不离不弃地陪伴着你身边。

虽然我知道，
你根本不需要我，
但是............

我爱你

压力当下....

final around the corner....

where my motivation!!??? 

getting lazy....tiring....haiz....

can I work harder???

I need you to motivate me actually....

but then??

that impossible...

the only thing I can do is...

keep a distance with u....

sorry...

I love you, my dear....

democratic country?? No!!!

国政赢了，
民联输了。
输，
不是没有实力，
而是因为太过好人，
太过干净。
明明已宣布由民联胜出，
但却来一场大停电，
无故的多跑几包票，
无故的胜利者变失败者....
这是干净的选举吗？
如果你一定要胜，
不则手段的胜，
那干吗要选举？？

今天，
许许多多的人民哭了，
大家都用种被骗的感觉...
马来西亚的民主死亡了....
让我们为马来西亚的民主哀悼吧!!!

Malaysia, deserve for a better tomorrow....

All this while,
I never standing on any side of the polictical parties,
but today,
I have something to say...
to be honest,
Najib had try his hard work,
but his wife, Rosmah...
too much!!!!

Racism and Malay's rights and non-bumi's rights had been make as an issues is this 13th general election.
to be honest,
I believe,
non any of the chinese against or refure or questions on the rights,
but it is too much...
I cant understand all this while,
why there is 2 system of education system carry in Malaysia?
STPM and matriculation.
as being recognise,
STPM, is much much difficult that matriculation ...
but the sits of university offer to STPM students r much lesser compare to matriculation....
I have no idea why??

let vote for pakatan,
let them tell us why...
now is the time to change...
UBAH...!!!!

我生病了....

时间过的真快，
转眼间，
第二学期已开始经路尾声
从一个星期的假期回来后，
我每天都忙着读书，
考试，
assignment........
终于，
忙病了!!
生病，
真的真的好辛苦....
一个人在外，
生病了，
根本没人会理你，
最多也只是一句，
take care ah....
就走掉了.....

当我靠近你时，
你总是叫我不要干扰你，
我，
............
当我开始远离你的时候，
你却又在来靠近我，
黏着我....
让我
...............
haiz............
累了，就休息吧.....

是我想太多????

被排彻的感觉真好，
一个人，
孤孤单单地坐着听课，
不明白了，
不须任何的讨论，
直接问讲师就好....

一个人，
走在那冷清的街道上，
没了你们，
我孤独走在街上，
安静的站在巴士站，
遥望着站立在那的路灯，
心想，
它比我幸福，
至少他每天有一群人在等巴士时陪伴于它，
而我，
身边即使有着一群人，
但却给一个人.....

我，
不可以，
我，
不能，
为了得到你们的认同，
放慢脚步，
停留于某出，
我，
只能越跑越快，
等待，
等待一天，
你们，
清醒啦，
想找我了，
我才在那....
迎接你们.....

累了，
不想哭了...
还是睡一觉，
继续努力吧....

http://youtu.be/kr5PdLWiDFk

我的感觉....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想逃离这里的感觉，
远离你，
远离所有让我感到忧虑、紧张、难过.....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想大声呐喊的感觉，
呐喊我心中所有的不快、伤心、愤怒....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想把自己封闭的感觉，
封闭我所有的纳闷、秘密、感情....

我有一种感觉，
一种很想去制造一种药，
让我忘记我对你的一切，
一切的爱、一切的单恋、一切的思念、一切的痛苦....

其实，
这一切都不是我想要的感觉，
我想要得感觉，
是当我有压力时，你给我一个深情的拥抱，
一句温暖我的话，一个愿意陪伴我渡过伤心的灵魂....

我要的是你的感情，
我要的是你的关心，
我要的是你的陪伴。

但是，
又有谁愿意呢？

WHO is the MAIN character in a show???

I would like decribe my life as show....

A show where I have to act, to present at all time....

no retake....go mean go....

I always tell myself ,

not to regret with what I did,

what I choose....

but

seriously,

I am regret now....

I am so regret to be here....

I am so so so regret.......

can't be denied,

I go across a lot of joys and sorrows over this university land....

but 

my tears,

really want to flow out.....

if you are trying to keep a distance with me.....

then do it !!!

make it really happen....

a long long distance.....

don't ever come close to me....

do you know....

sometime....

you treat me nicely....

until a level i don't know how to respond........

but 

sometime.......

I am being ignored by you.......

especially when they are there.......

you know

what is my feeling???

I act nothing........

I keep quiet.......

you alway say I pattern....

have you ever stand on my site......

think from my site???

I have a lot of things to share.....

to tell....

sometime.....

i tell you......

but you giving a feeling you are not willing to lend me you ear.....

may be is our mentality have different thinking.....

different opinion ba.........

today....

we go to bp celebrated our birthday....

when you are taking photo with many others......

but i don't even have one....

oh no...

got one...

being force by people....

haiz....

whatever la.....

all that.....

just my problem.....

let me dissapear from your life.....

from this world.......

goodbye....

goodnight..........

sleeping with my tears.......

alone....

listening to the lonely song......

lying down on the bed....

thinking of my problem alone.......

solving all the obstacle alone...........

life??? 

is alway like that.....

no one will really appreciate you....

love you...

taking care of you ....

other than your parent and you yourselves.......

I am tired with that.....

sorry.....

THE ONE WHO READ THIS....

EVEN YOU KNOW WHO AM I WRITING FOR....

PLEASE KEEP YOU MOUTH SHUT....

DON'T TELL ANYONE.....

I JUST TO BE HERE.....

EXPRESS MY ANGLE.......

DON'T SPOIL THE ONLY PLACE THAT I ABLE TO SPREAD ALL MY EMOTION.......

THANK YOU......

My 21st birthday....

Many people will celebrate their 21st birthday grandly....
how about me???
The day before my birthday,
I am study relaxly for my analog test tomorrow....
nothing that I expect...
other than,
score well for my all coming examination and success in life...
one more......
I love you....
hope you feel it....

Happy Birthday to me.......


http://youtu.be/gAnG1V21TZo

烦!!!

that is a period of time i don't update here....
recently, i quick busy...
busy with with all the proposal for my projects and assignment....
busy with preparing the test....
busy with understanding and digesting all the new things that i had never learn before this....
this semester,
I learn much new things....
I experience more new things....
wiring...build up a single phase circuit.....
AUCAD - drawing of analog circuit
robotics....
a lot more....

learning of this new things....
supposingly i am under big pressure....
but ,
I start to enjoy with what I study now...
what I learn now.........
Unfortunately,
something happen on me....
my faculty,
FKEE wish to rebranding the courses in order to get the accrediction....
with carrying this process.......
my specialization willn't being writen in the certificate when i graduate later.......
luckly,
KPT direct the FKEE management must obtain 100% of agreement from students
before they rebranding the courses....
I am the one who are not willing to sign.......
in fact,
I have think for several times....
I still refuse to sign that....
I not sturborn...
but I have my own reasons...........
seriously....
this issues really bring me down.......
for many people....this is just a small matter....
is just nothing....
but for me.......
what am I here???
that is the only answers.....

人生，总有许许多多的疑惑，
许许多多的问题....
如果， 我可以选择，
我不会选择你，
可是，
爱情，
一个人生最大的难题，
我， 真的没能力，
总是用功课来麻醉自己....
我很想很想与你分享我的一切，
当我有压力时，
你给我一个拥抱，
或是让我静静地拥抱着你，
可惜，
我想很难.....
所有的压力，
就让我自己，
一个人，
默默地...
在深夜里，
解决吧.....