运程与命运....

今年，
不知为何比往年来的迷信....
也许是在中五的时候受到了很大的打击....
所以，
从那时开始，
我开始相信神....
我已经做了我该做的东西....
接下来，
就给呈交给上帝去做了....
Madam Tian 常说:" try your best, do your best, leave the rest to god...."
now,
I finish my STPM,
I pray hardly everyday.....
I hope the god help me....
I don't asking for a lot....
I just wish the god don't give too much of challenges to me....

今年，
过年来的比往年沉闷....
我的过年活动就在facebook, blogging....
不知哪来的灵感，
我上了youtube,
打了“2012生肖运程”....
找到了，
听了好几个....
肖猴，
有贵人暗中相助....
会破财（去买些心头好吧）。。。。
我不是不相信，但我又希望有人帮我....
但我始终认为，
他（运程）
只是条引导线....
无论你的运气在好，
若你只懂得在一旁颓废....
在好的运气，
也于事无补.....

希望得到上帝的眷爱....
保佑我，
STPM 拿到我理想的成绩.....
进到我理想的大学.....
god bless me please.....

我有话要说.....

之前，我总是听到计划永远赶不上变化....
这次，我真的体会到这讲法...
原本计划在增江北区华小教书到7月....
要教些什么，要用些什么办法去帮他们....
全都在我的计划大全里.....
但上天偏偏就是那么的偏爱我....
要我尝试些新东西....
终于，那有责任感的教育局.....
派出了两位抱负了教育下一代的使命的伟大教育家....
一位是骑着马到来，一位则是乘搭龙舟到来的....
骑马来的是来代替我的，也就是教英文....
说真的，我为我的学生捏了把冷汗....
不是racist而是我拿到的班全都是后面班.....
他们连"please take out your english text book and all the exercise books"
都不明白....
我在想，接下来他们怎么办？？？
但我不能做些什么....
因为我走，是一个改变不了的 事实....
上帝为他们选着了这条路，
那就给看他们如何去走这条路....
希望他们能够度过这挑战.....

缘分，
让我来到了励志华小....
让我经历一个不同的人生....
在这，我看到了欺善怕恶....
我看到了能者多劳....
我看到了霸道....
我看到了无理取闹....
在这，
托北区校长的福，
来到这，受何校长的爱戴....
也托郑副德福，
来到这，受到颜副的细心相助.....
我无缘无故的成为了GURU SMM (Sistem Maklumat Murid)
无缘无故，须要帮一群“很忙”的电脑白痴打东西....
无缘无故的被那种做事情很有逻辑性的人骂我们guru smm头脑有问题，
做东西不符合逻辑.....
笑话，真是笑话....

离开了北区小学，
心乃然在那....
不懂何来的冲动....
就是想帮他们....
我疼爱的学生....
为什么？？？
因为在我还不懂我就来离开那间学校时，
我问了他们，
谁是真的想把英文学好....
我也答应了他们，
我会帮你们.....
可惜，可惜....
后来，我有了个想法，
给予他们免费的补习班，
可惜，
我的能力有限，
只好到处寻找同伴，
过程还满吃力，
幸亏，获得了上帝的爱戴，
我找到了同伴....
一群愿意和我出生入死....
一群愿意和我抱着相同使命，
为社会付出少少的贡献....

其实，
再这前，因为某些原因，
让我曾想放弃......
但因为一个家长的鼓励，
一位家长的认同.....
一群北区老师的认可....
让我的那股热情从新燃起.....
让我觉得我因该帮他们......
现在，
我的教育团对已建立起来.....
虽然人数屈指可数.....
但我们的目标必能实现....
现在只需等校方的配合.....
但愿一切能顺利完成.....


今天，
新年了，
今年的新年与往年来的不同....
今年，
没有往年的年三十晚，就只有年二十九.....
今年，
收到的第一封红包不是来自家人，
而是一位认识不到两天的老师.....
今年，
团圆饭，没有了婆婆的声音，
且多了叔母的声音.....
今年，
少了父母给予的压岁钱，
因为婆婆刚刚去世，
家人不能给红包....
外嫁女除外....

最后，
我祝各位
新年快乐，万事如意，身体健康，学业猛进，STPM好成绩，进到大学去，事事都顺利....

但愿上帝的庇佑，我们事事顺利，万事安康....

1st Job working experience.....

I lost my direction while I end my STPM examination.....

while waiting the result come out.....

I plan to look for work on the other hand polish up my english standard.....

seen everything not as smooth as what I was plan.....

but come to the end I found a job....

which is recommended by Wai Hong....

Become the temporary teacher at SRJK C Jinjang Utara....

the salary not high but the working hours is short....

the 1st day I went....

When I got my time table....

I had a kind of feeling....

can i run away from here....???

teaching Music??? Geography??? Life's Technic??? PJK????.....

so many subject and most of it are not my favourite.....

but I don't runs away from there.....

since I look fear enough.....

all my students scared of me....

and obeys with what I said....

many teachers wondering why???

and I am proud of it....XP

I start learning all the music theory from zero.....

I start teaching geography with no maps.....

steps by steps.....

I get all the behind classes.....

xcept for english and sivik.....

many people think that 8 days....

the relationship between I and my students will not strong....

I do have the same opinion....

yesterday....

I receive the news from PK1...

saying that next Monday there are 2 new teachers coming....

so any 2 of us have to go....

I choose to go....

the reason.....

I tough I am nothing......

but after that I feel I have something......

especially I saw my students down and sad.....

when I told them the news.....

when my english senior teacher ask me don't go.....

OMG.....I pretend like nothing.....

I love my students....

I do really put in a lot of afford in teaching them.....

especially my english class.....

i guild them for all the reading and listening parts.....

I practice with them everyday......

why just because of the jabatan send 2 people here.....

my plans all gone.....

even I know god had open another door for me at SMK Jinjang.....

but I worry about my year 2 students.....

do they able to interact with the new Mala's English teacher???

they are just year 2....

can they understand????

may god bless us able to catch up with that.....

My year 5 class.....

will u all study hrd and start ready for next year UPSR????

I have no idea....

May god bless you hard working.....

score your UPSR with flying colour next year.....

My year 6 class.....

will u all change ur study's attitude???

can u all polish up ur Malay???

I have no ideas???

I can't help you all anymore....

I have to leave.....

May god bless u pass ur malay n english.....

Mansell,

I am supprise that u cry because of I am leaving the school....

anywhere....you are my good monitor.....

you must study hard....

i can see you have a great future.....

May god bless you success in life......

sorry.....I also wish to stay.....

but I have no choice.....

if I can stay....

I will try my best to guild you guys up.....

I will help you guys.....

what can I do now....

is just waiting until the Monday....

wish the new teachers are not coming....

that all............

If I really leave.....

then good bye SRJK C Jinjang Utara.....

thank to all people who had help me out while I am teaching here......

touch.....XP......

god bless you all.....

and I love you all.....

the memories of my Pre-University Life

15 December 2011, my last paper for my STPM....
after the paper,
some of the boys from my class co-operate with each others arrange the tables and chairs that we used for our examination....
after worked, Mdm Azyan treat us the pizza at pizzahut....
I don't really know how much we ate but we are happy and enjoyed with it....

in one and the halve years....
i do really gain a lot of experiences.....
I have learn a lot....
I have getting mature....
seriously....

I had did a lot of things....
some brings joys and funs to people....
some bring sorrows and hurt the people around....
but one things that I know....
I get know who are my truth friends....

there are somethings that i would like to share....
about my classmates, my teachers and my prefectorial board juniors.....
i hope when you guys read this u won't angry with me....
that is just my personal opinions.....

from the 1st row....
Yap Pui Kwan -
I do remember when you 1st come to our school...
you did surprise us....
OMG...your math is crazy like held....
the questions that we cant do but you did it....
but i would like to say the people around the world are not deserve to serve you....
not everybody also kind....not everybody also willing to help u....
you should learn to be responsible....

Lock Li Li -
for me you are the people who has a great potential to study very excellent....
because u do have the strong foundation.....
anywhere....i hope next time anythings you should learn to protect yourselves and talk to your parent.....

Lee Connie -
seriously....we dont like the way u do works....
honestly i dont think you are deserve to be the TKP....
I dislike the ways you duty....
pls be responsible....
but i can c when u meet ur true friends u will b nice to them....

Chang Yee Ying -
i think you should learn to differentiate what is more important....
+ u la....yamdamiki.....run toward Japan....

chua chi wing -
i still remember how we know each others....
how we interact....
how we fight
how we union...Xp
but seriously....wing, as a friend i would like to advise you to control you emotion....
this not only my opinion....
but i think many people think the same way....
just no one are brave enough to tell you....
I hope you wont angry with me when u read this....^_^|/

Tan Hwee Teong -
honestly....
you are the most selfish people among who I had ever meet.....
sometime helping people also can gain something.....
pls change the ways u interact with others....

Lim Jine Keong -
I know you do care about every single one of us....
at 1st, many of us cannot get used to the ways you did.....
but now, i think we can accept....hahahaha
anyway thank for caring me...

Yap Shuang Yi -
you are the crazy people....
you are the same as me....
we willing to fight for the right....
fight for the true....
+ U ba.....

Soh Khar Mun -
you have giving me a lot of experience.....
thank you....
because at the important moment you still support me....
help me out....
hahahaha

Ong Li Yong -
seriously....
you have change a lot....but pls behave like a girl(joking)
a hard working gal...
gossip gal....
hahahaha

Ho Kah Wai-
a smart, but lazy people...
sometime I do really thinking of how come you can be so SMART!!!!
but dont continue lazy oh....
+U....

Yong Wai Yan-
you know la....hahahahaha....

Gan Shi Ling-
thank for sharing some staff with me....
even most of the time you din share it....
n i hope u can know ur direction....
and seriously....
i very hate and angry to hear
" see first " , " I not sure", "you dont cal me in 1st"
all this words....
for me....
most of the time when u making decision you have to be smart and fast...
if you want then said want...
if you dont want then said dont want....
that simple....
and pls try to think if u were I,
u receive such an answer wat do u think as an organiser....

Jia Ying-
a person cant "de zhui"
u r those people whou treat ppl with the way they treat u....
but for u...
sometime dont too stubborn on certain things...
especially when you had knew you going to lose....
learn to let go....
so that u wont get that hurt....

Jega-
the only indian friend in our class....
a nice...
responsible people....

Wai Hong-
you are a nice ppl....
who suport me all the time...
but i wont like to say....
u should learn to say know....
and tell sth directly without turning a big round....
not everybody can understand that.....

Kok Kiat-
a hardworking man....
can think sth that we never think...
hahahaha

Thin Sung-
speechless....

Jien Cheng....
bombaman....
when quiet very quiet....
when boom people the people sure die 99....
a peaceful guy....
hahahaha

Wen Quan-
1st i have to say sorry with what i had did b4....
then i want to tell u...
there r sth that you want to tell....
you should choose the correct people....
not everybody are suitable for every discussion....

Teng Jin Wen-
a crazy man....
alway 3 8 with me....
help the people around the class....
a smart people....
the one who love by most of the teachers....
like to emo when not happy...

Mdm Azlin
the teacher who had fight with us....
who dont like to obey the rule...
who caring students with a different way(scolding)....
who is brave....
hahahahaha

Mdm Azyan
a nice teacher....
who tough me since form 4....
always treat me a lot of food....
a biology story teller....

Mdm Tian
who always put us in the 1st place....
who care us the most....
everything thinking of us....
give us the best of everything....
who like to give extra class......

Mdm Banusha....
who always crazy with us....
band 4 be the 1st reason for her teaching....
like to train us for speaking....

Miss Catherine...
who have a Master degree....
high standard of math knowledge....
seriously...
we cant follow ur lessons....
so sorry....

Mr. Moay
who have motivate me the most....
always asking me dont give up....
fight for the future....
care about our study....
study be the 1st priority.......

that all....
my pre-university life had end....
but my memories with you guys never come to a fullstop....
you guys will always be in my heart.....
I love you all...
6SA/2011

sorry....

sorry..

I misunderstand you.......

sorry.

i make you cry...

sorry..

i make you sad........

sorry....

i disappointed you....

I am so sorry...

but honestly...

I do really take you as my best friend........

I want to share all my joys and sorrow with you.......

can I???

can we???

like before???

but in fact I do really sad.

because previously....

I will share my things with you...

and you will share you things with me....

after you change your sit.....

we seldom talk already....

you have no more share your things with me...

and I am the same too.......

so sorry.......

i do really care about your opinion bout me.....

^_^|/

an unmotivated day.....

today, someone had quarrel with someone....

in fact nothing is related to me....

when we go for lunch together....

when u said "your friend" and "my friend" ....

actually quick sad for me to heard this lo....

oh...

in your opinion, i m just his friend...

but not your....

being hurt....

......

when i realize many people also notice your blog..

n i m the one who still dont know....

that kind of feeling....

but I am who I am???

I am just nothing for u....

and yet I respect you......

but really quick sad la........

TT

after taking a nap....

i try my best to do homework....

when i did the math.....

i realy feel like want to cry....

i cant even do..

every question know how to start but dont know how to continue......

sad lo....

haiz..........

hope tomorrow will b a good day....

忆

2010／9／29，11.30am....
婆婆在这世上
吸下了她的最后一口气，
也呼出了最后一口气。
连续几晚的惊醒，
总意味着有时发生，
但却万万没想到是如此的厄息....
婆婆安祥的离开这人世....
也许这对她来说是一种解脱....
回想上星期六回来探望她时....
她辛苦的呼吸....
其实她的离开会是上天对她的决定.....
因为她老人家真的累了...
当棺木抵达家时，
每个人都流下眼泪....
只有我强忍了下来，
因为我知道婆婆不想我们伤心
这也是为什么婆婆不等我们到达才离去的原因...
在说，
哭只会给婆婆带来不舍....
那不是更辛苦吗？
在来，
我们还有许许多多的事情给处理....
理智告诉了我要坚强....

还有关心我的朋友们，有心了...
我挨的过去，
以我开朗的心情，
必定很快回归那开朗的我....

^_^|/

aFter tHe TriaL exAm......

at the end.

finish the STPM trial exam.....

I am very sure...

my result will not excellent....

if you ask me....

is the questions really difficult???

I dont think so....

especially physics......

if compared to diagnostik......

the standard is offcoz higher (except for physics)

but if we practise enough....

i think that shouldnt be any problem for us......

STPM just 2 month from now.......

I only leaf 2 month....

in this 2 month......I am the only one who can help myself.......

succeed or not succeed.....

is totally depend on how much afford i putting in......

MY STPM TIME TABLE

21 NOVEMBER PENGAJIAN AM KERTAS 2

25 NOVEMBER PHYSICS PAPER 2

30 NOVEMBER CHEMISTRY PAPER 1

1 DECEMBER CHEMISTRY PAPER 2

6 DECEMBER MATHEMATICS T 1

8 DECEMBER MATHEMATICS T 2

13 DECEMBER PENGAJIAN AM KERTAS 1

15 DECEMBER PHYSICS PAPER 1

TRY YOUR BEST, DO YOUR BEST, LEAVE THE REST TO THE GOD, AND ASK FOR THE BLESS.............

tired day.......

this holiday.

everybody work very hard...

because after the holiday...

exam start directly....

trial exam

but i just relax myself....

but start from tomorrow....

i have to work xtremly hard....

nothing....

just my target......

my hope........XP

I hOpe i wiLL continue until the end.......

surprisingly....

I able to finish my physics questions in 1 day time...

the whole chapter.....

i finish it..

this is what I never did before......

last time i am not that efficient........

but this time.......

I do it.......

I really hope i can continue my spirit until the end of STPM.........

I really have a big dream..........

which is score A for physics..........

Warren, U can do it......+ U